1 00:00:00,902 --> 00:00:03,470 (ominous music) 2 00:00:04,271 --> 00:00:07,007 (bells chiming) 3 00:00:20,922 --> 00:00:23,591 (upbeat music) 4 00:00:30,598 --> 00:00:32,366 (dramatic instrumental music) 5 00:00:32,499 --> 00:00:33,801 - [Benji] I think we should skip right to the fucking end. 6 00:00:33,935 --> 00:00:37,104 (pencil scratching) 7 00:00:40,542 --> 00:00:42,577 Here I am in the local cruising ground. 8 00:00:42,710 --> 00:00:45,112 No, I'm not about to get noshed off. 9 00:00:45,245 --> 00:00:46,781 I'm about to get dumped. 10 00:00:46,915 --> 00:00:47,882 - I'm calling it a day, mate. 11 00:00:48,016 --> 00:00:49,416 Like, I can't do this anymore. 12 00:00:49,551 --> 00:00:50,652 Fuck you! 13 00:00:50,785 --> 00:00:51,920 Calm down. 14 00:00:52,052 --> 00:00:53,186 You're having a good time. 15 00:00:53,320 --> 00:00:54,856 You weren't complaining at the time 16 00:00:54,989 --> 00:00:56,691 when I was paying for all your fucking holidays were you? 17 00:00:56,824 --> 00:00:58,526 You were looking forward to be sitting here right now. 18 00:00:58,660 --> 00:01:00,127 You're lucky to have spent time with me for that time. 19 00:01:00,260 --> 00:01:03,497 Like, just be thankful for that time at least. 20 00:01:03,631 --> 00:01:05,800 Spiteful face fucking you're overstepping the boundary 21 00:01:05,934 --> 00:01:07,334 and that's it. That's the fucking end. 22 00:01:07,467 --> 00:01:08,368 (dramatic music) - [Benji] I really wish 23 00:01:08,503 --> 00:01:10,270 that was the fucking end. 24 00:01:10,404 --> 00:01:13,508 (melancholy music) 25 00:01:15,475 --> 00:01:18,646 - [Jake] You had a good run. Fuck off. 26 00:01:19,346 --> 00:01:22,449 (Benji screaming) 27 00:01:22,584 --> 00:01:27,789 (melancholy rock music) (phone ringing) 28 00:01:29,389 --> 00:01:30,758 - And even though it's been like, what, 29 00:01:30,892 --> 00:01:31,859 three months? 30 00:01:31,993 --> 00:01:33,595 Still fucking hurts. (coughs) 31 00:01:33,728 --> 00:01:36,998 Sorry that I sent you all them fucked up messages last night 32 00:01:37,130 --> 00:01:38,533 I ended up getting really fucked. 33 00:01:38,666 --> 00:01:39,667 I'm sorry, I didn't mean that. 34 00:01:39,801 --> 00:01:40,568 I fucking love you. 35 00:01:40,702 --> 00:01:41,970 I fucking absolutely love you. 36 00:01:42,102 --> 00:01:43,337 You're a fucking prick. 37 00:01:43,470 --> 00:01:44,772 We don't have to have dinner, 38 00:01:44,906 --> 00:01:46,007 we can just meet up and we can just fuck. 39 00:01:46,139 --> 00:01:47,675 Like I'm not even hard. 40 00:01:47,809 --> 00:01:49,343 Just really fucking struggling with it all at the minute. 41 00:01:49,476 --> 00:01:50,377 Really, really sorry. 42 00:01:50,511 --> 00:01:53,781 (melancholy music) 43 00:02:01,889 --> 00:02:06,628 This is the fifth guy that I've had round this week. 44 00:02:11,966 --> 00:02:14,902 (The Dom sniffing) 45 00:02:16,971 --> 00:02:18,138 The Dom. (lively instrumental music) 46 00:02:18,271 --> 00:02:19,841 Rough and ready. 47 00:02:19,974 --> 00:02:21,743 He also works at my local supermarket 48 00:02:21,876 --> 00:02:23,477 and he lives with his elderly mum, Joanne. 49 00:02:23,611 --> 00:02:27,247 - [Joanne] Hi dear. - [Benji] She's dead sweet. 50 00:02:27,381 --> 00:02:28,983 - All right, all right. 51 00:02:29,117 --> 00:02:29,951 Do you like poppers? 52 00:02:30,084 --> 00:02:31,052 - Yeah. - Do you? 53 00:02:31,218 --> 00:02:32,219 - Yeah. - Sniff that one. 54 00:02:32,352 --> 00:02:34,922 (Benji sniffing) 55 00:02:35,056 --> 00:02:35,990 How open are you now? 56 00:02:36,124 --> 00:02:37,290 Do you like being fucking open? 57 00:02:37,424 --> 00:02:39,326 Yeah you do. (spits) 58 00:02:39,459 --> 00:02:40,394 There you are. 59 00:02:40,528 --> 00:02:41,461 - [Benji] Have you ever thought, 60 00:02:41,596 --> 00:02:43,631 how the fuck did I end up here? 61 00:02:43,765 --> 00:02:44,966 Now, this moment here (kids laughing) 62 00:02:45,099 --> 00:02:46,134 is the first time I remember 63 00:02:46,333 --> 00:02:49,269 getting really, really turned on. 64 00:02:50,638 --> 00:02:53,141 - That's it, yeah. (panting) 65 00:02:53,273 --> 00:02:54,942 Fucking smell that. 66 00:02:55,076 --> 00:02:56,309 Fucking yeah. 67 00:02:58,579 --> 00:02:59,847 - [Benji] It is gonna be so awkward 68 00:02:59,981 --> 00:03:01,415 when I buy milk off him in the morning. 69 00:03:01,549 --> 00:03:03,483 (Dom smacking) (bell dinging) 70 00:03:03,618 --> 00:03:04,752 - [Mum] Are you just gonna play with that 71 00:03:04,886 --> 00:03:05,385 or are you gonna eat it? 72 00:03:05,520 --> 00:03:06,621 - I feel sick. 73 00:03:06,754 --> 00:03:07,722 - Oh, come on. 74 00:03:07,855 --> 00:03:10,725 I made that from scratch, darling. 75 00:03:10,858 --> 00:03:13,628 (sighs) Look at the state of you. 76 00:03:13,761 --> 00:03:14,629 Is this you now? 77 00:03:14,762 --> 00:03:15,563 This is it? 78 00:03:15,697 --> 00:03:16,531 - My mum. (upbeat music) 79 00:03:16,664 --> 00:03:17,832 She wasn't perfect... 80 00:03:17,965 --> 00:03:19,232 - But do you know what? 81 00:03:19,366 --> 00:03:20,333 It would've been so much fucking easier 82 00:03:20,467 --> 00:03:21,936 if you were just with a bird. 83 00:03:22,070 --> 00:03:22,870 Do you know what I mean? 84 00:03:23,004 --> 00:03:23,771 Look at ya. 85 00:03:23,905 --> 00:03:24,906 Jesus Christ. 86 00:03:25,039 --> 00:03:26,339 I thought we could have fun together, 87 00:03:26,473 --> 00:03:27,542 but I want a happy gay. 88 00:03:27,675 --> 00:03:29,110 I'm giving you advice. 89 00:03:29,242 --> 00:03:30,243 I'm telling you not to go out drinking every night 90 00:03:30,377 --> 00:03:31,579 and you are. 91 00:03:31,713 --> 00:03:32,547 So if you're not gonna listen to me, 92 00:03:32,680 --> 00:03:34,048 you are not moving in. 93 00:03:34,182 --> 00:03:35,683 - [Benji] She's way better than she used to be. 94 00:03:35,817 --> 00:03:38,953 - I wanted a fucking grandkids. That's all. 95 00:03:39,087 --> 00:03:40,253 But oh no! 96 00:03:40,387 --> 00:03:43,524 Old fucking selfish faggot chops. 97 00:03:43,658 --> 00:03:45,526 Listening in are ya? 98 00:03:46,194 --> 00:03:47,461 Fucking poof. 99 00:03:48,462 --> 00:03:50,330 What about AIDs? 100 00:03:50,464 --> 00:03:51,264 I did not say that. 101 00:03:51,398 --> 00:03:52,700 I would never say that. 102 00:03:52,834 --> 00:03:53,634 - You did. 103 00:03:54,769 --> 00:03:56,771 - Are you seeing your mate Daniel recently? 104 00:03:56,904 --> 00:03:58,606 - [Benji] Daniel from year 11 at school? 105 00:03:58,740 --> 00:03:59,741 No, I've not. - Yeah. 106 00:03:59,874 --> 00:04:01,341 He just moved in with his misses. 107 00:04:01,475 --> 00:04:02,643 Look at him. He's doing really well for himself. 108 00:04:02,777 --> 00:04:03,276 And look at you. 109 00:04:03,410 --> 00:04:04,579 State of it. 110 00:04:04,712 --> 00:04:06,147 - You know he is fruity don't you? 111 00:04:06,279 --> 00:04:07,982 - Fruity? - Fruity. 112 00:04:08,850 --> 00:04:10,218 - What? 113 00:04:10,350 --> 00:04:11,351 - What do you think we were doing upstairs in the bedroom 114 00:04:11,485 --> 00:04:12,587 when we were kids? 115 00:04:12,720 --> 00:04:13,420 - [Mum] Are you actually kidding me? 116 00:04:13,554 --> 00:04:14,856 (upbeat music) 117 00:04:14,989 --> 00:04:16,490 - [Benji] Did you ever have that mate in school 118 00:04:16,624 --> 00:04:17,290 that just wanted to wank with you all the time? 119 00:04:17,424 --> 00:04:18,760 Well, I did. 120 00:04:18,893 --> 00:04:20,528 And it never made you gay unless you actually... 121 00:04:20,661 --> 00:04:23,097 - Benji, what the fuck are you doing, man? 122 00:04:23,231 --> 00:04:24,331 Bruv. 123 00:04:24,464 --> 00:04:25,700 - I thought that's what you wanted. 124 00:04:25,833 --> 00:04:26,834 - You thought that's what I wanted? 125 00:04:26,968 --> 00:04:28,636 You fucking kidding me? 126 00:04:28,770 --> 00:04:30,505 I swear to fucking God, Benji, 127 00:04:30,638 --> 00:04:31,471 if you tell anyone about this, 128 00:04:31,606 --> 00:04:33,074 I'll fucking kill you. 129 00:04:33,207 --> 00:04:34,609 Okay? 130 00:04:34,742 --> 00:04:36,778 I'll fucking kill you. 131 00:04:38,045 --> 00:04:39,614 Faggot. (slaps) 132 00:04:39,747 --> 00:04:43,251 - [Benji] He was back in my bed the following weekend. 133 00:04:43,383 --> 00:04:46,087 - (sighs) I just want you to be happy. 134 00:04:46,220 --> 00:04:47,588 I really do. 135 00:04:47,722 --> 00:04:49,056 - It's really difficult to like get it out my head 136 00:04:49,190 --> 00:04:50,725 and I think that's why I just keep drinking, 137 00:04:50,858 --> 00:04:51,926 'cause I'm like, 138 00:04:52,059 --> 00:04:53,060 I just keep thinking about him all the time. 139 00:04:53,194 --> 00:04:54,494 Do you know what I mean? 140 00:04:54,629 --> 00:04:56,463 - He don't wanna know you. 141 00:04:56,597 --> 00:04:57,865 So why should you wanna know him? 142 00:04:57,999 --> 00:05:00,101 - Well, I just can't get him out of my head mum. 143 00:05:00,234 --> 00:05:01,803 Like it's really fucking me up. 144 00:05:01,936 --> 00:05:04,437 - But you think he's thinking about you? 145 00:05:04,572 --> 00:05:05,673 All I want for you 146 00:05:05,807 --> 00:05:07,508 is to get yourself a job, 147 00:05:07,642 --> 00:05:09,510 stop selling pigeons. 148 00:05:09,644 --> 00:05:10,343 - Hello. - Hello. 149 00:05:10,477 --> 00:05:11,378 - Hello. 150 00:05:11,512 --> 00:05:12,479 - I'm Ryan. This is Benji. 151 00:05:12,613 --> 00:05:13,848 We're knocking on doors today 152 00:05:13,981 --> 00:05:15,817 collecting money for Save the Birds UK. 153 00:05:15,950 --> 00:05:18,219 It's 50p a month. - Save the what? 154 00:05:18,351 --> 00:05:19,821 - Save the Birds. - Oh! 155 00:05:19,954 --> 00:05:21,354 - In the UK. Yeah. 156 00:05:21,488 --> 00:05:23,591 It's 50p for one bird sponsorship 157 00:05:23,724 --> 00:05:26,027 or it's 75p for two birds per month. 158 00:05:26,160 --> 00:05:28,162 - Okay, so what kind of birds? 159 00:05:28,296 --> 00:05:29,697 What do I get? What bird? 160 00:05:29,831 --> 00:05:31,265 - So we're still doing the lovely Christmas cards 161 00:05:31,398 --> 00:05:32,633 that you get sent each Christmas. 162 00:05:32,767 --> 00:05:33,901 We've also got some really nice badges 163 00:05:34,035 --> 00:05:34,735 that get sent out. 164 00:05:34,869 --> 00:05:36,270 - Ooh, what color badges? 165 00:05:36,403 --> 00:05:37,337 - Yes, you can get blue, green, pink. 166 00:05:37,470 --> 00:05:38,873 - (gasps) What color blue? 167 00:05:39,006 --> 00:05:41,309 - We've got swimming pool blue, baby blue. 168 00:05:41,441 --> 00:05:42,276 Exactly like this? 169 00:05:42,409 --> 00:05:43,343 - No, I don't like it. 170 00:05:43,476 --> 00:05:44,712 What about a sapphire blue? 171 00:05:44,846 --> 00:05:45,847 - Yeah, I think there's sapphire blue as well. 172 00:05:45,980 --> 00:05:47,315 - Oh, wow. 173 00:05:47,447 --> 00:05:48,448 - Listen lady, are you gonna sponsor a fucking bird or what? 174 00:05:48,583 --> 00:05:50,151 - Ryan, AKA the Bellend. 175 00:05:51,285 --> 00:05:54,055 He has lost me so much commission over the years, 176 00:05:54,188 --> 00:05:55,355 but he's got a good heart 177 00:05:55,488 --> 00:05:56,891 and he's pretty fit. 178 00:05:57,024 --> 00:05:59,426 You fucking taking the piss mate? 179 00:05:59,560 --> 00:06:01,796 - You know what? Fuck off. 180 00:06:01,929 --> 00:06:03,097 (door slamming) 181 00:06:03,231 --> 00:06:05,600 - (laughs) What a fucking tight bitch she was. 182 00:06:05,733 --> 00:06:07,001 - Were you just born with a fucking massive nob 183 00:06:07,134 --> 00:06:08,536 on your head, mate? 184 00:06:08,669 --> 00:06:09,971 - Mate, I cannot be bothered to do this anymore. 185 00:06:10,104 --> 00:06:12,607 Can we please go and find some real birds? 186 00:06:12,740 --> 00:06:13,975 Find you a cuckold mate. 187 00:06:14,108 --> 00:06:15,576 - How the fuck have you got any money? 188 00:06:15,710 --> 00:06:16,777 - I've got business savvy, haven't I? 189 00:06:16,911 --> 00:06:18,212 - Yeah. - Hey, what's up? 190 00:06:18,346 --> 00:06:20,281 What's the matter with you? 191 00:06:20,413 --> 00:06:22,016 What's up? 192 00:06:22,149 --> 00:06:23,416 Oh, come on mate. 193 00:06:23,551 --> 00:06:24,819 Come on, let's go find some real fanny. 194 00:06:24,952 --> 00:06:26,254 Come on. It's bank holiday weekend. Please. 195 00:06:26,386 --> 00:06:27,321 Please. 196 00:06:27,454 --> 00:06:28,256 I know you don't like Fanny. 197 00:06:28,388 --> 00:06:29,357 I know you like the dick 198 00:06:29,489 --> 00:06:31,626 but this is for me, isn't it? 199 00:06:31,759 --> 00:06:33,160 Because they're always like, "Oh, my God, 200 00:06:33,294 --> 00:06:33,995 he's so gay," 201 00:06:34,128 --> 00:06:35,495 and I'm like, 202 00:06:35,630 --> 00:06:36,898 "Oh, I'm not. I'm fucking straight." (laughs) 203 00:06:37,031 --> 00:06:38,465 - No, I'm just not really in a good place 204 00:06:38,599 --> 00:06:39,399 at the moment mate at all, like at all. 205 00:06:39,533 --> 00:06:40,501 - Oh, come on mate. 206 00:06:40,635 --> 00:06:42,003 What else would you be doing? 207 00:06:42,136 --> 00:06:44,972 (lively instrumental music) (water pattering) 208 00:06:45,106 --> 00:06:46,073 Hey, come on mate. 209 00:06:46,207 --> 00:06:46,941 - All right. 210 00:06:47,074 --> 00:06:47,675 - Yeah? - Yeah. 211 00:06:47,808 --> 00:06:48,743 - Yes. Come on then. 212 00:06:48,876 --> 00:06:50,044 Let's fucking get the fanny. 213 00:06:50,177 --> 00:06:52,013 Come on. Let's go mate. 214 00:06:52,146 --> 00:06:53,314 Whoa! Here we go. 215 00:06:53,446 --> 00:06:55,716 (energetic club music) 216 00:06:55,850 --> 00:06:56,984 Come on. Fucking suck that boy. 217 00:06:57,118 --> 00:06:59,387 Come on then mate. Whey! 218 00:06:59,520 --> 00:07:01,989 Benji, wants the D. Come on! 219 00:07:02,990 --> 00:07:04,759 When you take it up the arse, does it feel nice? 220 00:07:04,892 --> 00:07:06,060 I mean I've had a finger up there before, 221 00:07:06,193 --> 00:07:07,128 but... (balls tapping) 222 00:07:07,261 --> 00:07:08,362 Do you suck cock as well? Yeah. 223 00:07:08,495 --> 00:07:09,664 I don't think I could suck cock. 224 00:07:09,797 --> 00:07:10,831 I could probably have it sucked 225 00:07:10,965 --> 00:07:12,300 if I was absolutely fucked. 226 00:07:12,432 --> 00:07:13,668 Do you know what I mean? (balls tapping) 227 00:07:13,801 --> 00:07:14,835 What's the biggest dick that you've ever seen? 228 00:07:14,969 --> 00:07:16,604 I don't understand, right, 229 00:07:16,737 --> 00:07:17,905 how do you make sure that there's no shit up there 230 00:07:18,039 --> 00:07:19,140 before a dick goes in? (balls tapping) 231 00:07:19,273 --> 00:07:20,808 When a guy comes round, 232 00:07:20,942 --> 00:07:24,078 how do you know who's gonna take it and who's gonna give it? 233 00:07:24,211 --> 00:07:29,050 What is the biggest dick that you've ever seen? 234 00:07:29,183 --> 00:07:31,218 Is it nine inches? 235 00:07:31,352 --> 00:07:32,620 Is 10 inches? 236 00:07:34,755 --> 00:07:36,290 Is it 11 inches? 237 00:07:36,424 --> 00:07:37,792 - [Benji] I don't fancy him. 238 00:07:37,925 --> 00:07:39,492 - Why don't you come over here and show me yours? 239 00:07:39,627 --> 00:07:40,861 - [Benji] I don't. 240 00:07:40,995 --> 00:07:42,029 - Yeah? 241 00:07:42,163 --> 00:07:43,597 I'm fucking so hard for you right now. 242 00:07:43,731 --> 00:07:45,599 - [Benji] He's straight. I don't fancy him. 243 00:07:45,733 --> 00:07:47,668 All right. I fucking do. 244 00:07:47,802 --> 00:07:51,505 And it stops me thinking about him anyway. 245 00:07:59,479 --> 00:08:02,850 (energetic club music) 246 00:08:06,954 --> 00:08:08,322 - Yo. Excuse me. - Fucking hell. 247 00:08:08,456 --> 00:08:10,358 - How long are you gonna be on that pool table for? 248 00:08:10,490 --> 00:08:11,559 - Dunno mate. Ask him. 249 00:08:11,692 --> 00:08:12,626 - (sighs) Fuck sake. 250 00:08:12,760 --> 00:08:14,996 - Still think I'm gay? (laughs) 251 00:08:15,129 --> 00:08:16,197 Not me. 252 00:08:16,330 --> 00:08:17,431 That's my friend. 253 00:08:17,565 --> 00:08:20,201 - He's the gay one. - Exactly. 254 00:08:20,334 --> 00:08:21,535 - Are you all right ladies? 255 00:08:21,669 --> 00:08:23,037 All right, mate. 256 00:08:23,170 --> 00:08:24,238 No trouble tonight, you. 257 00:08:24,372 --> 00:08:26,073 - Fuck off. - See you down there, yeah? 258 00:08:26,207 --> 00:08:27,775 All right, mate. - You all right. Is he gay? 259 00:08:27,908 --> 00:08:29,043 - He is proper gay. 260 00:08:29,176 --> 00:08:29,844 - Prove it. 261 00:08:29,977 --> 00:08:31,679 - What? - Prove it. 262 00:08:32,947 --> 00:08:34,115 At least try to pretend. 263 00:08:34,248 --> 00:08:35,383 Any trouble you's are fucking out. 264 00:08:35,516 --> 00:08:36,317 - Is it busy in there mate? 265 00:08:36,450 --> 00:08:37,351 - Yeah, it's rammed. 266 00:08:37,485 --> 00:08:39,520 Evening ladies. You okay? 267 00:08:39,653 --> 00:08:43,924 (energetic club music continues) 268 00:08:44,592 --> 00:08:46,494 - What the fuck? 269 00:08:46,627 --> 00:08:47,661 Ryan. 270 00:08:47,795 --> 00:08:48,996 - Oh, Charlotte. 271 00:08:49,130 --> 00:08:50,564 - Oh, so you can't find your own man 272 00:08:50,698 --> 00:08:52,433 so you come to a gay bar and take mine? 273 00:08:52,566 --> 00:08:53,734 - Your man? That ain't your man. 274 00:08:53,868 --> 00:08:55,036 - Get out my face. 275 00:08:55,169 --> 00:08:56,070 - [Ryan] She was kissing me first. 276 00:08:56,203 --> 00:08:56,904 - Get off me! 277 00:08:57,038 --> 00:08:57,738 She was kissing you first. 278 00:08:57,872 --> 00:08:58,839 Was she fuck. 279 00:08:58,973 --> 00:08:59,907 Why are you getting involved? 280 00:09:00,041 --> 00:09:01,575 Stink like a right little slag. 281 00:09:01,709 --> 00:09:03,611 (girls screaming) - Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! 282 00:09:03,744 --> 00:09:05,146 - [Benji] Of course we get kicked out. 283 00:09:05,279 --> 00:09:06,414 (upbeat rock music) 284 00:09:06,614 --> 00:09:07,448 I should have just stayed at home 285 00:09:07,848 --> 00:09:10,818 wanking and crying into my pillow. 286 00:09:16,857 --> 00:09:18,359 Yeah, he'll do. 287 00:09:18,492 --> 00:09:19,794 He's well fit 288 00:09:19,927 --> 00:09:22,163 but he's into Ryan. 289 00:09:22,296 --> 00:09:23,431 I'll take it. 290 00:09:23,631 --> 00:09:26,535 Anything to stop thinking about him. 291 00:09:27,268 --> 00:09:29,403 I managed to get him back home and... 292 00:09:29,538 --> 00:09:31,439 You're fit. (laughs) 293 00:09:31,572 --> 00:09:33,574 - Yeah. Where's that lad? 294 00:09:33,707 --> 00:09:34,975 The one you're with tonight. - Huh? 295 00:09:35,109 --> 00:09:36,444 - Where's the lad we were with tonight? 296 00:09:36,577 --> 00:09:37,546 - What, Ryan? 297 00:09:37,678 --> 00:09:38,513 - Yeah, whatever his name is. 298 00:09:38,646 --> 00:09:39,780 - He's straight. 299 00:09:39,914 --> 00:09:40,581 - What do you mean he's straight? 300 00:09:40,714 --> 00:09:42,016 - He's straight. 301 00:09:42,149 --> 00:09:43,184 - Well, is he not coming back with us tonight? 302 00:09:43,317 --> 00:09:44,285 - Nah. 303 00:09:44,418 --> 00:09:45,786 - Oh, so it's just me and you? 304 00:09:45,920 --> 00:09:47,688 Let's get another guy over from the internet, yeah. 305 00:09:47,822 --> 00:09:49,156 - What? - Yeah. It'd be really fun 306 00:09:49,290 --> 00:09:50,224 like the three of us. 307 00:09:50,357 --> 00:09:51,560 - Ah, fuck it. 308 00:09:51,692 --> 00:09:53,094 - [Man] Yeah, it'll be... No? - No. 309 00:09:53,227 --> 00:09:54,095 - [Man] What do you mean no? - Nah, just me and you. 310 00:09:54,228 --> 00:09:55,496 - (laughs) Yeah. 311 00:09:55,629 --> 00:09:56,864 So just me and you then, yeah? 312 00:09:56,997 --> 00:09:57,566 - Yeah. 313 00:09:57,698 --> 00:09:58,799 - All right, fine. 314 00:09:58,933 --> 00:10:00,968 Well, take your clothes off then. 315 00:10:01,102 --> 00:10:02,436 (laughs) 316 00:10:02,571 --> 00:10:03,804 Yeah. 317 00:10:07,441 --> 00:10:09,777 - [Benji] He doesn't even want to be here. 318 00:10:09,910 --> 00:10:10,811 Yeah. All right. 319 00:10:10,945 --> 00:10:13,280 I've not been to the gym. 320 00:10:13,414 --> 00:10:14,915 He thinks fuck it. 321 00:10:16,650 --> 00:10:17,685 (melancholy rock music) 322 00:10:17,818 --> 00:10:21,322 ♪ There's a monster in my head ♪ 323 00:10:21,455 --> 00:10:22,591 And so it continues. 324 00:10:22,723 --> 00:10:24,425 A drink, a fuck, a grinder. 325 00:10:24,559 --> 00:10:26,427 A drink, a fuck, a grinder. 326 00:10:26,561 --> 00:10:30,631 I just do anything to stop thinking about him. 327 00:10:30,764 --> 00:10:33,801 (music continues) 328 00:10:36,871 --> 00:10:38,072 I think about going to your house 329 00:10:38,205 --> 00:10:39,608 but I remember the restraining order. 330 00:10:39,740 --> 00:10:40,708 I think about going to your work. 331 00:10:40,841 --> 00:10:41,842 I think about phoning you, 332 00:10:41,976 --> 00:10:43,277 but you've blocked me. 333 00:10:43,444 --> 00:10:47,047 I think about anything I can do to reach you. 334 00:10:58,058 --> 00:11:01,662 They say the best way to move forward is to go back. 335 00:11:01,795 --> 00:11:04,798 (music continues) 336 00:11:11,238 --> 00:11:14,008 (dramatic music) 337 00:11:20,615 --> 00:11:23,784 (pencil scratching) 338 00:11:24,952 --> 00:11:28,055 This is me not on the edge of a nervous breakdown. 339 00:11:28,189 --> 00:11:30,491 I was having a bit of an independent traveling phase, 340 00:11:30,625 --> 00:11:33,761 which meant an £89 flight to Amsterdam for the weekend. 341 00:11:33,894 --> 00:11:36,864 (lively music) 342 00:11:40,701 --> 00:11:42,604 ♪ I think I felt love ♪ 343 00:11:42,736 --> 00:11:44,705 ♪ I've sure felt pain ♪ 344 00:11:44,838 --> 00:11:46,641 ♪ I've tasted sun ♪ 345 00:11:46,774 --> 00:11:48,842 ♪ When I've kiss the rain ♪ 346 00:11:48,976 --> 00:11:50,844 ♪ And I've learned to win ♪ 347 00:11:50,978 --> 00:11:52,947 ♪ As I've learned to lose ♪ 348 00:11:53,080 --> 00:11:55,115 ♪ As I've learned to see ♪ 349 00:11:55,249 --> 00:11:56,784 ♪ The good in you ♪ 350 00:11:56,917 --> 00:11:59,320 ♪ Somehow ♪ 351 00:12:01,021 --> 00:12:02,423 It's moments like these 352 00:12:02,557 --> 00:12:04,593 that you wish a sign would spring up being like, 353 00:12:04,725 --> 00:12:06,160 run bitch, run. 354 00:12:07,895 --> 00:12:09,863 But there wasn't one. 355 00:12:11,633 --> 00:12:12,766 Fuck, he's coming over. 356 00:12:12,900 --> 00:12:13,734 Shit. Shit. Shit. 357 00:12:13,867 --> 00:12:15,369 God, he's coming over. 358 00:12:15,503 --> 00:12:16,837 Okay, so why were you staring at him? 359 00:12:16,971 --> 00:12:18,772 You can see his dick in those shorts. 360 00:12:18,906 --> 00:12:20,174 - Joke innit. 361 00:12:21,108 --> 00:12:23,043 - Yeah. All canceled. 362 00:12:24,979 --> 00:12:26,780 - (sighs) Have to wait for the next one now. 363 00:12:26,914 --> 00:12:28,816 (whimsical music) 364 00:12:28,949 --> 00:12:30,652 (bubbles popping) 365 00:12:30,784 --> 00:12:32,052 Fancy another? 366 00:12:32,186 --> 00:12:34,221 - Introducing the absolute bellend 367 00:12:34,355 --> 00:12:37,525 that I'm about to fall in love with. 368 00:12:38,359 --> 00:12:42,129 (glasses clinking) Cheers. 369 00:12:44,699 --> 00:12:46,601 - Don't you hope for some fit girls on our flight? 370 00:12:46,735 --> 00:12:52,439 - [Benji] And I really hope after seven pints you're gay. 371 00:12:52,574 --> 00:12:53,374 - You gonna get that? 372 00:12:53,508 --> 00:12:54,808 - It's my mum, honestly, 373 00:12:54,942 --> 00:12:55,843 since she's found out the planes are canceled, 374 00:12:55,976 --> 00:12:56,910 she's like, are you okay? 375 00:12:57,044 --> 00:13:00,214 I'm like, fuck off. (laughs) 376 00:13:00,347 --> 00:13:01,882 - I wish I could call my mum. 377 00:13:02,016 --> 00:13:03,618 - Call her. 378 00:13:03,752 --> 00:13:05,019 - Can't mate. She's dead. 379 00:13:05,152 --> 00:13:06,887 - Oh, fuck. Sorry mate. 380 00:13:07,021 --> 00:13:08,922 - Did you kill her? - What? 381 00:13:09,056 --> 00:13:12,226 - What you sorry for you bellend? 382 00:13:13,762 --> 00:13:16,765 - [Benji] I just kept thinking my mum would be like... 383 00:13:16,897 --> 00:13:19,634 - [Mum] He's got big dick energy. 384 00:13:19,768 --> 00:13:21,636 (lively instrumental music) 385 00:13:21,770 --> 00:13:24,872 - Things I learned about the fit guy at the airport. 386 00:13:25,005 --> 00:13:27,308 He was a PT for footballers, 387 00:13:27,441 --> 00:13:29,544 i.e. rich. (tell bell ringing) 388 00:13:29,678 --> 00:13:31,680 He was a huge cock tease, 389 00:13:31,812 --> 00:13:34,716 but always followed it up by talking about fit girls. 390 00:13:34,848 --> 00:13:36,250 He said he had a 10-inch cock, 391 00:13:36,383 --> 00:13:39,788 which sometimes he couldn't fit in boxer briefs. 392 00:13:39,920 --> 00:13:41,589 (Jake laughing) 393 00:13:41,723 --> 00:13:43,891 - Hi. Hi. Sorry. (coughs) 394 00:13:44,024 --> 00:13:46,060 I think you're in the wrong seat. 395 00:13:46,193 --> 00:13:49,631 Actually, there was a bit of a mix-up at check-in. 396 00:13:49,764 --> 00:13:50,931 You see I'm his carer, 397 00:13:51,065 --> 00:13:52,099 so I need to be sat next to him. 398 00:13:52,232 --> 00:13:53,535 Is that all right? 399 00:13:53,668 --> 00:13:55,469 - Why, what's wrong with him? 400 00:13:55,603 --> 00:13:57,772 (Benji laughing) 401 00:13:57,905 --> 00:14:01,075 - Right. Okay, no problem. 402 00:14:01,208 --> 00:14:04,311 - [Jake] Stop laughing. - You prick! 403 00:14:05,547 --> 00:14:06,380 I'm Benji. 404 00:14:07,414 --> 00:14:08,583 - Benji? 405 00:14:08,717 --> 00:14:10,552 - Right. Well, what's your name? 406 00:14:10,685 --> 00:14:12,419 - If we're still talking on the flight home, 407 00:14:12,554 --> 00:14:13,921 I'll tell you. 408 00:14:14,054 --> 00:14:15,923 - (laughs) You arrogant cunt. (lively instrumental music) 409 00:14:16,056 --> 00:14:17,826 But he's fit as fuck. 410 00:14:17,958 --> 00:14:19,193 Fit people get away with anything. 411 00:14:19,326 --> 00:14:21,596 - Hit the bars when we land, yeah? 412 00:14:21,730 --> 00:14:25,567 - All right. (both chuckling) 413 00:14:28,001 --> 00:14:30,070 I like bacon on it 414 00:14:30,204 --> 00:14:32,707 and then maple syrup on the bacon. 415 00:14:32,841 --> 00:14:33,541 - On a pancake? 416 00:14:33,675 --> 00:14:34,542 - Yeah. 417 00:14:35,543 --> 00:14:37,645 Like American style. - Fucking so wrong mate. 418 00:14:37,779 --> 00:14:38,979 Bacon on a pancake? 419 00:14:39,113 --> 00:14:40,948 - Yeah. - What the fuck man? 420 00:14:41,081 --> 00:14:42,584 That's mental. (laughs) 421 00:14:42,717 --> 00:14:45,953 - So you're not meeting anyone out here or anything? 422 00:14:46,086 --> 00:14:47,087 - No. 423 00:14:48,055 --> 00:14:49,323 What about you? 424 00:14:49,456 --> 00:14:50,290 - No. 425 00:14:53,795 --> 00:14:55,764 - So I've got you all to myself then, have I? 426 00:14:55,896 --> 00:14:57,030 (Benji laughing) 427 00:14:57,164 --> 00:14:58,365 (lively instrumental music continues) 428 00:14:58,499 --> 00:14:59,967 - [Benji] We start necking back pints 429 00:15:00,100 --> 00:15:01,034 and already I feel like one of the lads. 430 00:15:01,168 --> 00:15:01,935 We flip beer mats up in the air. 431 00:15:02,069 --> 00:15:03,470 And to be honest, 432 00:15:03,605 --> 00:15:05,072 it just demonstrates that I'm really dyspraxic. 433 00:15:05,205 --> 00:15:06,306 We play darts. 434 00:15:06,440 --> 00:15:08,576 He lets me win. It's pretty cute. 435 00:15:08,710 --> 00:15:09,943 We go get high. 436 00:15:10,077 --> 00:15:11,780 It does not mix well with the alcohol. 437 00:15:11,912 --> 00:15:13,414 I am feeling fucked. 438 00:15:13,548 --> 00:15:16,049 I convince him that all the fit girls go to gay bars. 439 00:15:16,183 --> 00:15:18,485 Cut to the whitey starts to affect me 440 00:15:18,620 --> 00:15:20,688 and I'm sick in my mouth three times. 441 00:15:20,822 --> 00:15:22,055 We have pictures in a photo booth 442 00:15:22,189 --> 00:15:23,257 and he pretends to suck me off. 443 00:15:23,390 --> 00:15:25,125 And to be honest, I get hard. 444 00:15:25,259 --> 00:15:28,462 We end up dancing and I look like E.T. on ketamine. 445 00:15:28,596 --> 00:15:30,197 He keeps looking at girls in the club 446 00:15:30,330 --> 00:15:33,133 and it is starting to fuck me off a little bit. 447 00:15:33,267 --> 00:15:35,002 We go get chips and I just keep thinking, 448 00:15:35,135 --> 00:15:36,638 am I about to spend the weekend with someone 449 00:15:36,771 --> 00:15:38,105 who just wants to fuck a bird? 450 00:15:38,238 --> 00:15:39,541 Am I in that situation 451 00:15:39,674 --> 00:15:41,408 where I've gotta pretend to be one of the lads? 452 00:15:41,543 --> 00:15:46,447 Or is something inside of him just that little bit gay? 453 00:15:53,655 --> 00:15:54,689 - Feel all right? 454 00:15:54,823 --> 00:15:57,525 - Yeah. (both laughing) 455 00:15:57,659 --> 00:15:59,026 I think it's the beer. 456 00:15:59,159 --> 00:16:00,895 - It's fucked you up. 457 00:16:01,028 --> 00:16:02,564 - I'll be all right in a minute. 458 00:16:02,697 --> 00:16:04,164 Do you like when you drink and you smoke 459 00:16:04,298 --> 00:16:06,366 and it makes you a bit like. 460 00:16:06,500 --> 00:16:08,636 - Oh, I think I filled it too much. 461 00:16:08,770 --> 00:16:09,470 Oh, shit. 462 00:16:09,604 --> 00:16:10,805 Oh, fuck. 463 00:16:10,939 --> 00:16:12,206 Oh, mate. 464 00:16:12,339 --> 00:16:14,174 That's not good is it? (Benji chuckling) 465 00:16:14,308 --> 00:16:17,478 You ever shagged while you've been high? 466 00:16:17,612 --> 00:16:19,112 - [Benji] The last time I shagged when I got high, 467 00:16:19,246 --> 00:16:23,083 I actually vomited all over a guy's cock. 468 00:16:24,418 --> 00:16:25,486 Yeah. 469 00:16:25,620 --> 00:16:28,756 - How'd you feel like, was it good? 470 00:16:29,924 --> 00:16:31,593 It's nice, isn't it? 471 00:16:37,599 --> 00:16:39,466 (laughs) 472 00:16:43,270 --> 00:16:44,204 - Looks shit. (laughs) 473 00:16:44,338 --> 00:16:45,405 - Cheers. - Cheers. 474 00:16:45,540 --> 00:16:47,107 (glass clinking) 475 00:16:47,241 --> 00:16:50,344 (melancholy music) 476 00:16:55,617 --> 00:16:57,819 And then I think, fuck it. I'm gonna ask him. 477 00:16:57,952 --> 00:17:00,588 So, are you like straight, yeah? 478 00:17:04,458 --> 00:17:07,327 - Why you putting a label on it? 479 00:17:10,330 --> 00:17:12,534 What about you? 480 00:17:12,667 --> 00:17:14,502 - I shagged a girl once. - [Jake] You did? 481 00:17:14,636 --> 00:17:16,303 - Like, literally once. Yeah. 482 00:17:16,436 --> 00:17:17,539 - [Jake] Go on lad. 483 00:17:17,672 --> 00:17:18,973 - But, 484 00:17:19,106 --> 00:17:21,475 do you know like the 18 to thirties tour buses they do? 485 00:17:21,609 --> 00:17:22,376 - [Jake] Mm. 486 00:17:22,510 --> 00:17:24,012 - So I'm on one of them at 18 487 00:17:24,144 --> 00:17:25,747 and there's this woman on it and she's 35 to be fair. 488 00:17:25,880 --> 00:17:27,549 So she probably shouldn't have been on it. 489 00:17:27,682 --> 00:17:29,017 (both chuckling) 490 00:17:29,149 --> 00:17:30,450 So she's like got it in for me. 491 00:17:30,585 --> 00:17:32,185 She's obsessed with me for the whole trip 492 00:17:32,319 --> 00:17:33,688 and I'm terrified 493 00:17:33,821 --> 00:17:34,789 because I've got like proper virgin energy, 494 00:17:34,923 --> 00:17:35,890 do you know what I mean? 495 00:17:36,024 --> 00:17:36,558 - [Jake] So you were a virgin? 496 00:17:36,691 --> 00:17:37,725 - Yeah. 497 00:17:37,859 --> 00:17:39,426 And one night I'm in the swimming pool 498 00:17:39,561 --> 00:17:40,595 and we're all fucked, like we've been out drinking 499 00:17:40,728 --> 00:17:42,062 like proper on it. 500 00:17:42,195 --> 00:17:43,363 - Mm. 501 00:17:43,497 --> 00:17:44,364 - And she's like, target acquired. 502 00:17:44,498 --> 00:17:46,233 So she gets in the pool 503 00:17:46,366 --> 00:17:48,970 like knickers off, comes over. 504 00:17:49,102 --> 00:17:51,071 - [Jake] Fucking hell. - I'm like that. 505 00:17:51,204 --> 00:17:53,240 She comes over and she's shagging me, right? 506 00:17:53,373 --> 00:17:55,142 But there's this lad, this Argentinian lad 507 00:17:55,275 --> 00:17:56,744 who's fit as fuck 508 00:17:56,878 --> 00:17:58,178 and he's watching us, 509 00:17:58,312 --> 00:17:59,146 but he's wanking. 510 00:17:59,279 --> 00:18:00,949 So I'm watching him wank 511 00:18:01,081 --> 00:18:02,517 while I'm shagging her 512 00:18:02,650 --> 00:18:04,451 and I'm looking at him in the eyes and I'm like... 513 00:18:04,586 --> 00:18:06,821 - [Jake] Fuck, so he was basically keeping your hard. 514 00:18:06,955 --> 00:18:08,188 - Yeah. (Jake chuckling) 515 00:18:08,322 --> 00:18:11,224 And I was like, fuck I'm gay. (laughs) 516 00:18:11,358 --> 00:18:12,694 - You know what? 517 00:18:14,328 --> 00:18:16,598 We should get someone in. 518 00:18:17,999 --> 00:18:20,200 - What do you mean? 519 00:18:20,334 --> 00:18:22,202 Wait. - Get a brass. 520 00:18:23,671 --> 00:18:24,606 Girl brass. 521 00:18:24,739 --> 00:18:25,974 - Right. 522 00:18:26,106 --> 00:18:27,474 - Good for it. 523 00:18:29,744 --> 00:18:31,445 You don't have to do anything if you don't want. 524 00:18:31,579 --> 00:18:34,616 - Well, yeah. I'm not gonna shag a bird, am I? 525 00:18:34,749 --> 00:18:35,550 - You can watch. 526 00:18:35,683 --> 00:18:36,584 (slow music) 527 00:18:36,718 --> 00:18:37,518 (Benji mumbling) 528 00:18:37,652 --> 00:18:38,452 - Yeah? 529 00:18:38,586 --> 00:18:41,388 - All right. Yeah, whatever. 530 00:18:41,522 --> 00:18:43,758 Inside I was thinking absolutely fucking not. 531 00:18:43,891 --> 00:18:45,192 (door knocking) 532 00:18:45,325 --> 00:18:46,694 But I might get to see his dick so... 533 00:18:46,828 --> 00:18:49,063 (heels tapping) 534 00:18:49,196 --> 00:18:51,866 (door thudding) 535 00:18:53,901 --> 00:18:56,136 - This is Vanessa. 536 00:18:56,269 --> 00:18:58,372 - So do you wanna sit down, 537 00:18:58,506 --> 00:18:59,540 chat for a little bit, 538 00:18:59,674 --> 00:19:00,775 or go straight to the bedroom? 539 00:19:00,908 --> 00:19:02,209 Got about 30 minutes. 540 00:19:02,342 --> 00:19:04,579 - Oh, yeah. Is it all right if he watches? 541 00:19:04,712 --> 00:19:08,348 - Yeah, that's 80 euros more cash. 542 00:19:08,482 --> 00:19:09,617 - Have you got cash? 543 00:19:09,751 --> 00:19:10,652 Are you sure? 544 00:19:10,785 --> 00:19:11,886 - Yeah, yeah. 545 00:19:12,020 --> 00:19:13,320 Yeah, that's fine. Yeah. 546 00:19:13,453 --> 00:19:14,354 - [Vanessa] Okay. Bedroom through there? 547 00:19:14,488 --> 00:19:15,923 - Yeah. Yeah. You lead the way. 548 00:19:16,057 --> 00:19:17,825 - Okay. (heels clipping) 549 00:19:17,959 --> 00:19:19,594 See you in there? 550 00:19:20,494 --> 00:19:22,229 - No, not arsed. Honestly. 551 00:19:22,362 --> 00:19:23,163 Not arsed. 552 00:19:23,296 --> 00:19:25,499 - Come on. Come through. 553 00:19:27,902 --> 00:19:29,169 (upbeat music) 554 00:19:29,302 --> 00:19:30,538 - [Benji] Now, this for me was a little bit 555 00:19:30,672 --> 00:19:32,674 like a choose your own adventure book. 556 00:19:32,807 --> 00:19:36,476 Turn to page three to go back to your hostel and have a wank 557 00:19:36,611 --> 00:19:39,514 or turn to page 73 to get involved. 558 00:19:39,647 --> 00:19:40,748 (game show winning jingle) 559 00:19:40,882 --> 00:19:42,650 (gentle sensual music) 560 00:19:42,784 --> 00:19:45,753 (couple moaning) 561 00:19:52,660 --> 00:19:55,797 Watching wasn't usually my thing, but 562 00:19:55,930 --> 00:19:58,298 I could tell it was his. 563 00:19:58,432 --> 00:20:01,803 He's not taking his eyes off me and 564 00:20:01,936 --> 00:20:03,370 I'm hard as fuck. 565 00:20:07,775 --> 00:20:10,477 So is she like your type then? 566 00:20:13,147 --> 00:20:13,981 - Blondes, 567 00:20:14,816 --> 00:20:15,950 brunettes, 568 00:20:16,084 --> 00:20:16,918 redheads. 569 00:20:17,852 --> 00:20:19,286 What about you? 570 00:20:21,556 --> 00:20:22,422 (energetic music) 571 00:20:22,623 --> 00:20:23,791 - [Benji] I wish I could say 572 00:20:23,991 --> 00:20:26,794 I went for loving caring guys, but... 573 00:20:27,862 --> 00:20:28,830 - Yeah, 574 00:20:28,963 --> 00:20:30,464 you know, you're lucky to have me. 575 00:20:30,598 --> 00:20:32,567 - [Benji] Danny, who loved to do ketamine. 576 00:20:32,700 --> 00:20:34,468 And if I didn't do ketamine with him 577 00:20:34,602 --> 00:20:37,171 then I was a bad, bad boyfriend. 578 00:20:37,304 --> 00:20:38,806 - I know what your mum thinks of me. 579 00:20:38,940 --> 00:20:41,642 Yeah. I dunno why you need to speak to her though. 580 00:20:41,776 --> 00:20:43,144 Why do you need your family? 581 00:20:43,276 --> 00:20:45,680 - [Benji] And here's Smiley Sean. 582 00:20:45,813 --> 00:20:49,217 Smiley Sean, who used to call me morbidly obese. 583 00:20:49,349 --> 00:20:50,585 What a keeper. 584 00:20:50,718 --> 00:20:52,620 - The fact that I slept with you. Oh! 585 00:20:52,754 --> 00:20:55,723 Fuck, like why would I do that? 586 00:20:56,591 --> 00:20:57,859 - Bit like me then yeah? 587 00:20:57,992 --> 00:21:00,728 (Benji laughing) 588 00:21:02,163 --> 00:21:03,798 Go on then. 589 00:21:03,931 --> 00:21:04,766 - What? 590 00:21:08,069 --> 00:21:09,170 - Go on then. 591 00:21:09,302 --> 00:21:11,706 - [Benji] Go on then what? 592 00:21:13,141 --> 00:21:15,275 - I said, "Go on then." 593 00:21:16,844 --> 00:21:22,049 (lips smacking) (both heavy breathing) 594 00:21:23,217 --> 00:21:24,018 (lively instrumental music) 595 00:21:24,152 --> 00:21:25,820 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 596 00:21:25,953 --> 00:21:27,922 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 597 00:21:28,055 --> 00:21:28,856 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 598 00:21:28,990 --> 00:21:30,258 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 599 00:21:30,390 --> 00:21:32,126 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ (fireworks exploding) 600 00:21:32,260 --> 00:21:33,895 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 601 00:21:34,028 --> 00:21:35,930 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 602 00:21:36,063 --> 00:21:36,931 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 603 00:21:37,064 --> 00:21:38,132 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 604 00:21:38,266 --> 00:21:40,500 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 605 00:21:40,635 --> 00:21:44,772 ♪ For the lord God omnipotent reigneth ♪ 606 00:21:44,906 --> 00:21:47,508 (Jake panting) 607 00:21:52,914 --> 00:21:55,616 - Why did you come back here, Benji? 608 00:21:55,750 --> 00:21:57,317 (high-pitched whistling) 609 00:21:57,450 --> 00:21:58,418 (dramatic music) (pencil scratching) 610 00:21:58,553 --> 00:21:59,787 - [Benji] And then it sinks in 611 00:21:59,921 --> 00:22:01,222 that it's just me and a pint of wine 612 00:22:01,354 --> 00:22:03,090 getting completely off my tits 613 00:22:03,224 --> 00:22:04,357 and reliving what I thought 614 00:22:04,491 --> 00:22:06,160 was the best relationship of my life. 615 00:22:06,294 --> 00:22:08,830 (melancholy music) 616 00:22:08,963 --> 00:22:12,800 This time in £89 fight to Amsterdam doesn't feel the same. 617 00:22:12,934 --> 00:22:17,772 I don't know what I'm fucking doing coming back here. 618 00:22:21,576 --> 00:22:22,342 You want me to get it in? 619 00:22:22,475 --> 00:22:23,511 - Get it in. 620 00:22:23,644 --> 00:22:25,046 You little pussy. Don't stop. 621 00:22:25,179 --> 00:22:26,413 Don't stop. Keep going. 622 00:22:26,547 --> 00:22:28,282 - [Benji] Staying in this apartment, 623 00:22:28,415 --> 00:22:30,184 it feels haunted now. 624 00:22:31,118 --> 00:22:32,119 - That's me. Wait, wait, wait, wait. 625 00:22:32,253 --> 00:22:33,420 - Oh, for fuck sake. 626 00:22:33,554 --> 00:22:35,223 - And there we go. 627 00:22:35,355 --> 00:22:37,357 - Oh, fucking hell! 628 00:22:38,092 --> 00:22:39,093 You're dirty. 629 00:22:39,227 --> 00:22:41,028 You are so dirty. 630 00:22:41,162 --> 00:22:42,395 - Nice. 631 00:22:42,530 --> 00:22:43,331 - I mean, I'm not fucking doing that. 632 00:22:43,463 --> 00:22:44,131 You can fuck right off. 633 00:22:44,265 --> 00:22:45,266 - We can try it. 634 00:22:45,398 --> 00:22:46,499 - Fuck off. 635 00:22:47,301 --> 00:22:50,437 ♪ One more drink and I hear ♪ 636 00:22:50,571 --> 00:22:52,940 ♪ Demons in my ear ♪ 637 00:22:53,074 --> 00:22:54,575 (dramatic music) (pencil scratching) 638 00:22:54,709 --> 00:22:57,477 (both panting) 639 00:22:58,613 --> 00:23:01,414 (bed squeaking) 640 00:23:03,483 --> 00:23:06,153 (Jake grunting) 641 00:23:13,393 --> 00:23:16,530 (Benji groaning) 642 00:23:20,668 --> 00:23:23,537 (Jake grunting) 643 00:23:28,376 --> 00:23:31,045 (Benji panting) 644 00:23:53,200 --> 00:23:54,902 - Get off me, you faggot. 645 00:23:55,036 --> 00:23:57,672 (bed creaking) 646 00:24:00,841 --> 00:24:05,179 - [Benji] I wonder if I've ever made anyone feel this shit? 647 00:24:05,313 --> 00:24:07,682 And then I remember my ex-girlfriend. 648 00:24:07,815 --> 00:24:08,950 (girlfriend giggling) 649 00:24:09,083 --> 00:24:10,785 Yeah, that's me pretending to be asleep 650 00:24:10,918 --> 00:24:13,254 so I don't have to have sex with her. 651 00:24:13,387 --> 00:24:14,588 - I'm gonna do it now. 652 00:24:14,722 --> 00:24:16,357 No, I wanna have sex. 653 00:24:16,489 --> 00:24:17,525 - I'm drunk. 654 00:24:17,658 --> 00:24:18,993 - I'm drunk. (laughs) 655 00:24:19,126 --> 00:24:21,796 We're both drunk. (lips smacking) 656 00:24:21,929 --> 00:24:22,763 Come on. 657 00:24:23,764 --> 00:24:25,800 Come on. (laughs) 658 00:24:25,933 --> 00:24:29,236 - [Benji] I'm gonna be sick. 659 00:24:29,370 --> 00:24:31,238 - You always do this. 660 00:24:31,372 --> 00:24:33,074 - No, I do. I just- 661 00:24:33,207 --> 00:24:34,775 - Then what is it? 662 00:24:34,909 --> 00:24:35,843 - I'm drunk. I feel sick. 663 00:24:35,977 --> 00:24:37,178 - I've put this on. (crying) 664 00:24:37,311 --> 00:24:38,446 Every time I wanna have sex with you, 665 00:24:38,579 --> 00:24:39,513 you don't wanna go near me. 666 00:24:39,647 --> 00:24:40,480 Do you just wanna break up? 667 00:24:40,614 --> 00:24:41,615 Is that what you want? 668 00:24:41,749 --> 00:24:43,417 - No. No. That's not what I want. 669 00:24:43,551 --> 00:24:46,087 - You just keep pushing me away. 670 00:24:46,220 --> 00:24:47,154 But you know what? 671 00:24:47,288 --> 00:24:48,322 I'm gonna have sex tonight, 672 00:24:48,456 --> 00:24:50,891 whether it's with you or not. 673 00:24:52,360 --> 00:24:53,527 Fuck off. I'm done. 674 00:24:53,661 --> 00:24:56,230 (door creaking) 675 00:24:56,364 --> 00:24:57,497 - [Benji] I just wanted to watch films 676 00:24:57,631 --> 00:24:59,734 and have a gossip with her. 677 00:24:59,867 --> 00:25:02,303 - My name's Jake. You passed the test. 678 00:25:02,436 --> 00:25:03,437 - Oh, 679 00:25:03,571 --> 00:25:04,705 Jakey poos. 680 00:25:08,376 --> 00:25:09,076 - What you doing? 681 00:25:09,210 --> 00:25:10,378 - What? 682 00:25:10,511 --> 00:25:11,812 - It's a little bit gay that Benji. 683 00:25:11,946 --> 00:25:13,314 - Your dick up my arse is a little bit gay. 684 00:25:13,447 --> 00:25:14,815 - (scoffs) Fuck off. 685 00:25:14,949 --> 00:25:17,018 It's not gay if you're doing the shagging mate. 686 00:25:17,151 --> 00:25:18,285 (both chuckling) 687 00:25:18,419 --> 00:25:21,088 - Are you on prep by the way? 688 00:25:22,023 --> 00:25:24,658 - Just to put it out there, 689 00:25:24,792 --> 00:25:26,694 I'm not gay. Okay? 690 00:25:28,662 --> 00:25:30,498 Just having a bit of fun. 691 00:25:30,631 --> 00:25:31,932 And this is nothing serious. 692 00:25:32,066 --> 00:25:33,200 Like, I don't wanna be on the list of guys 693 00:25:33,334 --> 00:25:35,403 that fucked you up in the past. 694 00:25:35,536 --> 00:25:36,604 - You won't. No. 695 00:25:36,737 --> 00:25:39,040 Someone's got a big head. 696 00:25:41,742 --> 00:25:43,177 - Do this again? 697 00:25:43,310 --> 00:25:44,011 - Yeah. 698 00:25:44,145 --> 00:25:44,645 - Next month? 699 00:25:44,779 --> 00:25:45,746 - Next month? 700 00:25:45,880 --> 00:25:46,580 - Yeah. Go anywhere you like. 701 00:25:46,714 --> 00:25:48,182 You can pick. 702 00:25:48,315 --> 00:25:49,917 - I've not really got any money mate, to be honest. 703 00:25:50,051 --> 00:25:51,485 - Fuck off Jock. Come away or not? 704 00:25:51,619 --> 00:25:52,319 - What? 705 00:25:52,453 --> 00:25:53,187 - On me. 706 00:25:53,320 --> 00:25:54,355 You can choose. 707 00:25:54,488 --> 00:25:58,325 - Money bags. (both chuckling) 708 00:25:58,459 --> 00:25:59,293 All right. 709 00:26:00,461 --> 00:26:01,362 - Yeah? 710 00:26:01,495 --> 00:26:02,630 - Yeah. 711 00:26:02,763 --> 00:26:04,432 It's a date. 712 00:26:04,565 --> 00:26:05,399 - It's not a date. 713 00:26:05,534 --> 00:26:06,300 - It's a date. 714 00:26:06,434 --> 00:26:07,268 - It's not a date. 715 00:26:07,401 --> 00:26:08,202 - It is, it's a date. 716 00:26:08,335 --> 00:26:09,136 - Shut the fuck up. 717 00:26:09,270 --> 00:26:10,037 - (laughs) It's a date. 718 00:26:10,171 --> 00:26:11,038 you're gonna come meet my mum. 719 00:26:11,172 --> 00:26:11,806 It's a date. 720 00:26:12,106 --> 00:26:12,973 - Fuck off. (Benji laughing) 721 00:26:13,107 --> 00:26:13,674 Get off me. 722 00:26:13,808 --> 00:26:14,809 It is not a date. 723 00:26:15,009 --> 00:26:18,145 - It's a date. (upbeat music) 724 00:26:24,418 --> 00:26:25,719 And that was it. 725 00:26:25,853 --> 00:26:28,222 Every month we'd meet and go to Amsterdam. 726 00:26:28,355 --> 00:26:30,357 ♪ My heart beats fast ♪ 727 00:26:30,491 --> 00:26:32,426 ♪ My blood runs slow ♪ 728 00:26:32,561 --> 00:26:35,496 - Clothes off. (bag thudding) 729 00:26:35,629 --> 00:26:38,299 (door slamming) 730 00:26:41,068 --> 00:26:42,336 Right. (door thudding) 731 00:26:42,470 --> 00:26:43,804 I'll get the bird in the MD. 732 00:26:43,938 --> 00:26:45,339 ♪ Never let you go. ♪ 733 00:26:45,473 --> 00:26:46,575 (sniffs) You have a shower, you smelly bastard. 734 00:26:46,707 --> 00:26:47,842 (Benji laughing) 735 00:26:47,975 --> 00:26:51,078 (guitar strumming) 736 00:26:52,113 --> 00:26:53,047 - Sick. 737 00:26:53,180 --> 00:26:54,516 - What you doing? - What? 738 00:26:54,648 --> 00:26:55,584 - Delete that please. 739 00:26:55,716 --> 00:26:56,817 - Fuck off. 740 00:27:01,388 --> 00:27:03,991 (door slamming) 741 00:27:05,594 --> 00:27:08,829 (water sloshing) 742 00:27:21,308 --> 00:27:23,377 - (laughs) Stop it. 743 00:27:23,512 --> 00:27:24,778 - I'm just taking it in 744 00:27:24,912 --> 00:27:26,615 that I've shagged a 10 twice this week. 745 00:27:26,747 --> 00:27:28,716 - You are such a weirdo mate. 746 00:27:28,849 --> 00:27:30,050 I shagged a mid-tier five 747 00:27:30,184 --> 00:27:31,785 and I've not said anything, have I? 748 00:27:31,919 --> 00:27:35,456 - No, but you've taken him away and paid for him. 749 00:27:35,590 --> 00:27:36,991 I was gonna say, actually 750 00:27:37,124 --> 00:27:38,492 I've got a bit of a sales commission coming up, 751 00:27:38,627 --> 00:27:41,228 so I was gonna transfer you a little bit of money. 752 00:27:41,362 --> 00:27:42,930 - Shut the fuck up. 753 00:27:43,898 --> 00:27:45,366 Right, get your kit off. - What you doing? 754 00:27:45,499 --> 00:27:46,934 - Let's get in the water. - What are you doing? 755 00:27:47,067 --> 00:27:48,269 - Take it off. Let's go - Fuck off! 756 00:27:48,402 --> 00:27:49,538 I'm not taking my kit off. - Why not? 757 00:27:49,670 --> 00:27:50,371 - Because I'm not. 758 00:27:50,505 --> 00:27:51,272 - Why not? 759 00:27:51,405 --> 00:27:52,072 Take your kit off. 760 00:27:52,206 --> 00:27:53,307 - We're outside. 761 00:27:53,440 --> 00:27:54,375 - There's no one here. 762 00:27:54,509 --> 00:27:55,309 - I'm not taking my top off. 763 00:27:55,442 --> 00:27:56,645 - Why not? 764 00:27:56,777 --> 00:27:58,245 - You won't have experienced this, right? 765 00:27:58,379 --> 00:27:59,680 But you know when a guy gives you the 766 00:27:59,813 --> 00:28:00,714 you've not been to the gym look. 767 00:28:00,848 --> 00:28:02,349 Like I'm just not into it. 768 00:28:02,483 --> 00:28:03,217 I'm not taking- 769 00:28:03,350 --> 00:28:04,718 - Benji, listen. 770 00:28:04,852 --> 00:28:05,886 Stop. 771 00:28:06,754 --> 00:28:08,289 Listen. 772 00:28:08,422 --> 00:28:11,492 When have I ever given you that look? 773 00:28:11,626 --> 00:28:12,459 Never. 774 00:28:13,827 --> 00:28:15,829 You look amazing. 775 00:28:15,963 --> 00:28:17,431 Now, come on, get your stuff off. 776 00:28:17,566 --> 00:28:18,899 Let's get in the water. 777 00:28:19,033 --> 00:28:22,436 We're in the red light district after, yeah? 778 00:28:22,571 --> 00:28:25,139 (upbeat music) 779 00:28:27,642 --> 00:28:28,709 (both laughing) 780 00:28:28,842 --> 00:28:31,745 (water sloshing) 781 00:28:31,879 --> 00:28:34,014 It's not bad, you know. 782 00:28:35,849 --> 00:28:37,484 ♪ Well, the cold of the night ♪ 783 00:28:37,619 --> 00:28:38,520 - And despite everything, 784 00:28:38,653 --> 00:28:39,887 you were the first person 785 00:28:40,020 --> 00:28:42,256 that made me feel positive about my body. 786 00:28:42,389 --> 00:28:43,224 Fuck off! 787 00:28:45,259 --> 00:28:48,729 Twat! (Jake laughing) 788 00:28:53,500 --> 00:28:55,637 Are you like this for women by the way? 789 00:28:55,769 --> 00:28:56,470 - Like what? 790 00:28:56,605 --> 00:28:57,871 - Dominating. 791 00:28:59,039 --> 00:29:01,175 - Women don't like it as much. 792 00:29:01,308 --> 00:29:03,244 - Right? Well, who said I liked it? 793 00:29:03,377 --> 00:29:06,548 - (scoffs) You seem to fucking like it. 794 00:29:06,681 --> 00:29:10,751 - All right, let's get a sliding little scale here, yeah. 795 00:29:10,884 --> 00:29:12,587 50-50 men, women. 796 00:29:12,721 --> 00:29:14,154 Where we sitting? 797 00:29:16,658 --> 00:29:21,829 - (exhales) I'd say 70-30, women to men. 798 00:29:24,131 --> 00:29:26,867 Yeah, I never said that out loud before. 799 00:29:27,001 --> 00:29:28,570 - That you're bi? 800 00:29:28,703 --> 00:29:30,705 - Did I say that, Benji? 801 00:29:31,872 --> 00:29:34,341 How many lads have you been with since we've been away? 802 00:29:34,475 --> 00:29:35,175 - None. 803 00:29:35,309 --> 00:29:35,809 - None? 804 00:29:35,943 --> 00:29:37,211 - Yeah, none. 805 00:29:38,479 --> 00:29:40,848 - Mate, I shagged like 10 birds since we last went away. 806 00:29:40,981 --> 00:29:43,585 Fucking hell, what you been doing? 807 00:29:43,718 --> 00:29:45,352 - Go on then. 808 00:29:45,486 --> 00:29:46,186 - What? 809 00:29:46,320 --> 00:29:47,821 - I want a Benji special. 810 00:29:47,955 --> 00:29:50,457 - Benji special. 811 00:29:50,592 --> 00:29:54,428 Get ready for your socks to be blown off. 812 00:29:54,562 --> 00:29:56,864 - [Benji] And in that moment I felt like a teenage girl 813 00:29:56,997 --> 00:30:00,735 and knew you were gonna be around for a while. 814 00:30:00,868 --> 00:30:02,936 ♪ Track between my ♪ 815 00:30:03,070 --> 00:30:05,707 ♪ My soul ♪ 816 00:30:05,839 --> 00:30:11,245 ♪ Think about you as these feelings grow ♪ 817 00:30:12,112 --> 00:30:16,383 ♪ Different paths down this winding road ♪ 818 00:30:17,384 --> 00:30:20,588 ♪ But I can't choose which way to go ♪ 819 00:30:20,722 --> 00:30:26,160 ♪ When we're together, we're strong ♪ 820 00:30:27,094 --> 00:30:31,298 ♪ But all this guilt feels so wrong ♪ 821 00:30:32,132 --> 00:30:36,303 ♪ I wish I knew which way I was headed ♪ 822 00:30:37,605 --> 00:30:41,375 ♪ This path ahead seems so long ♪ 823 00:30:41,509 --> 00:30:44,244 (bubble popping) 824 00:30:46,213 --> 00:30:48,616 What do you want to do now? 825 00:30:50,184 --> 00:30:53,120 (both panting) 826 00:30:54,955 --> 00:30:56,924 This did wonders for my esteem. 827 00:30:57,057 --> 00:30:59,960 (dramatic music) (pencil scratching) 828 00:31:00,094 --> 00:31:00,994 (melancholy music) 829 00:31:01,128 --> 00:31:02,963 ♪ My heart beats fast ♪ 830 00:31:03,097 --> 00:31:05,299 ♪ My blood runs slow ♪ 831 00:31:05,432 --> 00:31:07,702 ♪ Like the aftermath ♪ 832 00:31:07,836 --> 00:31:09,069 - [Mum] Benji, where are you? 833 00:31:09,203 --> 00:31:10,471 - Yeah, I'm in Amsterdam. 834 00:31:10,605 --> 00:31:13,207 No, I don't want you to fucking come out. 835 00:31:13,340 --> 00:31:14,041 I'm not. 836 00:31:14,174 --> 00:31:15,476 I'm not seeing him. 837 00:31:15,610 --> 00:31:17,077 I just need a few days out here on my own. 838 00:31:17,211 --> 00:31:18,445 No, I promise you I'm fine. 839 00:31:18,580 --> 00:31:19,413 I'm fine. 840 00:31:20,981 --> 00:31:22,517 Fuck sake. 841 00:31:22,650 --> 00:31:25,553 Look, I just need three days max and I'm gonna come home. 842 00:31:25,687 --> 00:31:26,788 I will. 843 00:31:26,987 --> 00:31:29,490 I'm not seeing him. He's not here. 844 00:31:32,393 --> 00:31:32,960 (exhales) 845 00:31:33,093 --> 00:31:34,596 Okay, I love you. 846 00:31:34,729 --> 00:31:37,231 I gave my head a wobble and decide to leave the flat, 847 00:31:37,364 --> 00:31:39,734 but I go and do what I always do. 848 00:31:39,868 --> 00:31:43,003 Only this time it's down a seedy alleyway in Amsterdam. 849 00:31:43,137 --> 00:31:46,940 (muffled energetic beat) 850 00:31:54,181 --> 00:31:57,384 (energetic club music) 851 00:31:59,953 --> 00:32:00,655 All right. 852 00:32:00,789 --> 00:32:03,424 (metal rattling) 853 00:32:10,130 --> 00:32:12,099 - You don't look like your pictures. 854 00:32:12,232 --> 00:32:13,033 - [Benji] All right. 855 00:32:13,167 --> 00:32:14,301 He's not wrong. 856 00:32:14,501 --> 00:32:17,539 I did use face tune on that picture. 857 00:32:25,112 --> 00:32:27,715 I don't have the words for what happened next. 858 00:32:27,849 --> 00:32:28,550 (metal clanging) 859 00:32:28,683 --> 00:32:30,150 Not yet anyway. 860 00:32:31,251 --> 00:32:32,252 - Don't worry. 861 00:32:32,386 --> 00:32:33,454 Why you look so scared, huh? 862 00:32:33,588 --> 00:32:34,254 - I'm not scared. 863 00:32:34,455 --> 00:32:36,724 - I take care of you, yes? 864 00:32:41,261 --> 00:32:43,932 (Benji nervously laughing) 865 00:32:44,064 --> 00:32:45,299 (man speaking foreign language) 866 00:32:45,432 --> 00:32:46,534 Go. 867 00:32:46,668 --> 00:32:47,501 Yes. 868 00:32:49,036 --> 00:32:50,070 Hm? 869 00:32:50,805 --> 00:32:52,005 (whistles) 870 00:32:52,139 --> 00:32:53,140 Sit. 871 00:32:54,241 --> 00:32:56,176 Do as your told. Sit. 872 00:32:57,946 --> 00:32:58,746 Good boy. 873 00:33:06,386 --> 00:33:07,555 You do as I tell you, yes? 874 00:33:07,689 --> 00:33:08,255 - Mm-hm. - Yes? 875 00:33:08,388 --> 00:33:09,990 - Yeah. - Mm-hm. 876 00:33:10,123 --> 00:33:11,726 Relax. - I'm fine. 877 00:33:11,860 --> 00:33:14,562 (wood creaking) 878 00:33:16,263 --> 00:33:17,665 You like? 879 00:33:17,799 --> 00:33:19,099 - Is he okay? 880 00:33:20,100 --> 00:33:21,134 - Yes. 881 00:33:21,769 --> 00:33:23,470 He wants me. 882 00:33:23,605 --> 00:33:24,506 He told me. 883 00:33:30,845 --> 00:33:31,679 Touch him. 884 00:33:33,815 --> 00:33:35,215 (man tutting) 885 00:33:35,349 --> 00:33:38,352 (man laughing) 886 00:33:39,353 --> 00:33:40,588 Why are you so scared? 887 00:33:40,722 --> 00:33:42,289 - I'm fine. 888 00:33:42,422 --> 00:33:44,626 - No. You need to relax. 889 00:33:45,627 --> 00:33:48,395 (glass clinking) 890 00:33:51,131 --> 00:33:53,535 - I've not done that one before. 891 00:33:53,668 --> 00:33:54,669 - It's okay. 892 00:33:56,069 --> 00:33:57,237 I show you. 893 00:34:05,112 --> 00:34:06,146 For you. 894 00:34:07,114 --> 00:34:08,683 You don't drink. 895 00:34:08,816 --> 00:34:11,686 (tuts) Not yet. 896 00:34:23,096 --> 00:34:24,632 - Just down it? - Drink. 897 00:34:24,766 --> 00:34:26,034 - Okay. - Sante. 898 00:34:26,166 --> 00:34:31,039 (muffled energetic music continues) 899 00:34:31,171 --> 00:34:32,105 - Mm? - Mm-hm. 900 00:34:32,239 --> 00:34:33,407 - You feel? - Mm-hm. 901 00:34:33,541 --> 00:34:36,276 - You want to feel? - Mm-hm. 902 00:34:44,217 --> 00:34:47,689 (loud energetic music) 903 00:35:08,009 --> 00:35:09,577 - What are you doing? 904 00:35:09,711 --> 00:35:10,612 - I need to go. 905 00:35:10,745 --> 00:35:11,646 - [Man] Huh? - I need to leave. 906 00:35:11,779 --> 00:35:12,880 - [Man] What? 907 00:35:13,014 --> 00:35:14,181 No, no, no, no. 908 00:35:14,314 --> 00:35:15,717 Why you going? 909 00:35:15,850 --> 00:35:16,718 - Mm-mm. 910 00:35:16,851 --> 00:35:17,952 - Huh? 911 00:35:18,086 --> 00:35:18,953 - I don't feel very well. - What? 912 00:35:19,087 --> 00:35:20,688 No, no. Stay. 913 00:35:20,822 --> 00:35:21,823 - Mm-mm. - Huh? 914 00:35:21,956 --> 00:35:22,890 You stay here, huh? 915 00:35:23,024 --> 00:35:24,092 (man slapping and grunting) 916 00:35:24,224 --> 00:35:25,158 Huh? (Benji crying) 917 00:35:25,292 --> 00:35:27,895 Come on. You fucking bitch. 918 00:35:28,029 --> 00:35:29,063 Huh? 919 00:35:29,196 --> 00:35:32,900 (speaks foreign language) 920 00:35:34,434 --> 00:35:36,571 (Benji vomiting and retching) 921 00:35:36,704 --> 00:35:41,441 (man screaming in foreign language) 922 00:35:43,377 --> 00:35:46,279 (man spitting) 923 00:35:46,413 --> 00:35:48,516 - Eventually, he leaves and my first thought is, 924 00:35:48,650 --> 00:35:50,450 "That could have been worse." 925 00:35:50,585 --> 00:35:52,920 How fucked up is that? 926 00:35:53,054 --> 00:35:53,888 (man shouting) 927 00:35:54,022 --> 00:35:54,922 I feel pain in my ribs 928 00:35:55,056 --> 00:35:56,090 and I close my eyes 929 00:35:56,223 --> 00:35:57,925 and leave my body. 930 00:36:00,962 --> 00:36:02,830 (film scratching) 931 00:36:02,964 --> 00:36:03,898 (gentle music) 932 00:36:04,032 --> 00:36:05,432 - The film you are about to see 933 00:36:05,566 --> 00:36:07,669 represents a homosexual. 934 00:36:07,802 --> 00:36:09,103 - Oh, no, no. 935 00:36:09,236 --> 00:36:10,404 That's no kind of a thing to say. 936 00:36:10,538 --> 00:36:11,906 (TV static hissing) 937 00:36:12,040 --> 00:36:13,675 - [Female Narrator] Find themselves depersonalized. 938 00:36:13,808 --> 00:36:14,909 Like almost leaving their body at those experience 939 00:36:15,043 --> 00:36:16,343 at those times. 940 00:36:16,476 --> 00:36:18,245 - [Mum] Benji, look at the time, my love. 941 00:36:18,378 --> 00:36:20,548 - [Male Narrator] You will grow up someday. 942 00:36:20,682 --> 00:36:22,249 - [Female Narrator] Typically, when we see dissociation, 943 00:36:22,382 --> 00:36:24,184 in almost all cases I've ever seen, 944 00:36:24,317 --> 00:36:25,920 it's a trauma response. 945 00:36:26,054 --> 00:36:26,854 It's often considered to be a- 946 00:36:26,988 --> 00:36:28,523 (dramatic music) 947 00:36:28,656 --> 00:36:30,658 - We seem to be drifting apart. 948 00:36:30,792 --> 00:36:32,894 - [Male Narrator] All homosexuals are not passive. 949 00:36:33,027 --> 00:36:34,494 (dramatic music) 950 00:36:34,629 --> 00:36:36,631 - And it's all because of- 951 00:36:36,764 --> 00:36:37,865 - [Male Narrator] Your product here. 952 00:36:37,999 --> 00:36:38,800 (Jake screaming) 953 00:36:38,933 --> 00:36:40,668 (muffled new report) 954 00:36:40,802 --> 00:36:43,104 (film scratching) (Jake screaming) 955 00:36:43,236 --> 00:36:44,972 - [Male Narrator] Disassociation. 956 00:36:45,106 --> 00:36:49,309 (manic music) (Benji vomiting) 957 00:36:49,443 --> 00:36:51,112 - [Benji] Have you ever been dealt a shit hand? 958 00:36:51,244 --> 00:36:53,313 (dramatic music) 959 00:36:53,447 --> 00:36:56,517 (energetic music) 960 00:37:00,188 --> 00:37:02,590 - Weren't you on my flight? 961 00:37:04,025 --> 00:37:05,860 - [Jake] I'm gonna fuck you up. 962 00:37:05,993 --> 00:37:11,398 - [Benji] I feel like I've been sucked up into an arsehole. 963 00:37:12,265 --> 00:37:14,068 I lose so many hours and I don't, 964 00:37:14,202 --> 00:37:15,603 don't know what day it is. 965 00:37:15,737 --> 00:37:17,739 - How much have you taken? 966 00:37:17,872 --> 00:37:20,340 - [Benji] And I just keep wishing that I was back with... 967 00:37:20,474 --> 00:37:21,909 (TV static hissing) 968 00:37:22,043 --> 00:37:23,477 (upbeat music) 969 00:37:23,611 --> 00:37:25,445 And this was the first trip that felt like a date. 970 00:37:25,580 --> 00:37:28,149 It felt like you wanted to show me off. 971 00:37:28,281 --> 00:37:29,316 We went out of the apartment, 972 00:37:29,449 --> 00:37:30,918 we went bike riding together 973 00:37:31,052 --> 00:37:32,820 and it felt amazing. 974 00:37:32,954 --> 00:37:34,055 - (laughs) Fuck, are you falling there? 975 00:37:34,188 --> 00:37:35,388 Falling there. 976 00:37:35,523 --> 00:37:36,224 What we talking about here, no hands? 977 00:37:36,356 --> 00:37:37,191 Hey? 978 00:37:37,324 --> 00:37:38,993 (upbeat music continues) 979 00:37:39,127 --> 00:37:40,995 It's fucking shocking weather. 980 00:37:41,129 --> 00:37:42,295 - Yeah. (brakes squealing) 981 00:37:42,429 --> 00:37:45,032 My brakes aren't working. (laughs) 982 00:37:45,166 --> 00:37:47,267 Who's fucking idea was this? 983 00:37:47,400 --> 00:37:49,369 - Stop being a pussy. 984 00:37:50,505 --> 00:37:52,140 All right, here you go. 985 00:37:52,272 --> 00:37:53,808 Would you rather 986 00:37:55,076 --> 00:37:56,778 lick out a fanny that were full 987 00:37:56,911 --> 00:37:59,113 with cottage cheese that been in the fridge for a year. 988 00:37:59,247 --> 00:38:00,480 (laughs) 989 00:38:00,615 --> 00:38:01,481 - Where the fuck do you get this shit? 990 00:38:01,616 --> 00:38:02,917 - Or (laughs) 991 00:38:03,050 --> 00:38:04,519 suck someone off 992 00:38:04,652 --> 00:38:05,920 if he had a Yorkshire pudding 993 00:38:06,053 --> 00:38:07,989 wrapped around the dick covered in gravy? 994 00:38:08,122 --> 00:38:09,624 (both laughing) 995 00:38:09,757 --> 00:38:11,192 - Yorkshire pudding cock. 996 00:38:11,324 --> 00:38:12,260 (both laughing) 997 00:38:12,392 --> 00:38:14,028 - Whose cock is it? 998 00:38:14,162 --> 00:38:15,997 - Doesn't matter. 999 00:38:16,130 --> 00:38:17,098 (ax thudding) 1000 00:38:17,231 --> 00:38:18,599 - [Benji] And yeah. All right. 1001 00:38:18,733 --> 00:38:22,570 Maybe I do wear rose-tinted glasses sometimes. 1002 00:38:22,703 --> 00:38:24,772 Maybe we weren't Snow White and the Huntsman 1003 00:38:24,906 --> 00:38:27,775 running round the woods that day. 1004 00:38:27,909 --> 00:38:32,013 But in my head it's how I like to remember it. 1005 00:38:36,651 --> 00:38:39,187 - What do you wanna do tonight? 1006 00:38:39,319 --> 00:38:43,057 - I've actually got a couple hours work tonight. 1007 00:38:43,191 --> 00:38:44,959 - You actually work out here? 1008 00:38:45,092 --> 00:38:45,860 - Yeah. 1009 00:38:45,993 --> 00:38:46,928 - Oh, right. 1010 00:38:47,061 --> 00:38:48,162 - It's a junior league, new client. 1011 00:38:48,296 --> 00:38:49,997 In and out. Nice and easy. 1012 00:38:50,131 --> 00:38:51,666 - I can come. 1013 00:38:51,799 --> 00:38:52,633 - No. 1014 00:38:56,771 --> 00:39:00,107 I think we should go somewhere hot next. 1015 00:39:00,241 --> 00:39:03,544 - I think you should stop spending money on me. 1016 00:39:03,678 --> 00:39:06,047 - I think you should shut the fuck up. 1017 00:39:06,180 --> 00:39:08,448 - Oh, yeah? (laughs) 1018 00:39:08,583 --> 00:39:10,184 Fuck off. 1019 00:39:10,318 --> 00:39:11,351 Fuck off. 1020 00:39:23,164 --> 00:39:24,265 (romantic string music) 1021 00:39:24,397 --> 00:39:25,066 That was actually quite romantic. 1022 00:39:25,199 --> 00:39:27,702 (bubble popping) 1023 00:39:28,368 --> 00:39:29,971 - Suck me off. 1024 00:39:30,104 --> 00:39:31,572 - What if someone comes? 1025 00:39:31,706 --> 00:39:33,207 - Yeah, I'm gonna come. 1026 00:39:33,341 --> 00:39:34,342 - We're in the woods. 1027 00:39:34,474 --> 00:39:35,610 - Yeah, so? 1028 00:39:37,111 --> 00:39:39,180 - Can we not be just like romantic 1029 00:39:39,313 --> 00:39:41,249 for like two minutes? 1030 00:39:41,381 --> 00:39:42,250 (record scratching) 1031 00:39:42,415 --> 00:39:44,785 I felt like a nosh on tap. 1032 00:39:49,957 --> 00:39:52,760 - Can we just make something clear? 1033 00:39:52,894 --> 00:39:54,262 - All right, use your serious voice. 1034 00:39:54,394 --> 00:39:57,397 - Shut the fuck up a second. 1035 00:39:57,531 --> 00:39:58,933 The arrangement is 1036 00:39:59,066 --> 00:40:02,303 we see each other in Amsterdam, not in the UK. 1037 00:40:02,435 --> 00:40:03,838 I book the trips 1038 00:40:03,971 --> 00:40:05,539 and I tell you when we're gonna see each other. 1039 00:40:05,673 --> 00:40:06,707 All right? 1040 00:40:10,811 --> 00:40:11,779 - Hale? 1041 00:40:11,913 --> 00:40:13,047 (laughs) You live in fucking Hale? 1042 00:40:13,180 --> 00:40:14,315 - The fuck you doing with my wallet? 1043 00:40:14,447 --> 00:40:15,383 You fucking weirdo. Get off. 1044 00:40:15,516 --> 00:40:16,483 - Fucking hell. Calm down mate. 1045 00:40:16,617 --> 00:40:17,551 - Don't tell me to calm down. 1046 00:40:17,685 --> 00:40:18,485 - Don't fucking shout at me. 1047 00:40:18,619 --> 00:40:19,387 - Don't shout at me! 1048 00:40:19,520 --> 00:40:20,453 - Fuck off! 1049 00:40:20,588 --> 00:40:21,389 - You fuck off you little prick. 1050 00:40:21,522 --> 00:40:22,723 - Don't fucking hit me. 1051 00:40:22,857 --> 00:40:23,758 - Fuck off you little- - Fuck off. 1052 00:40:23,891 --> 00:40:24,825 - Fuck off you little cunt. 1053 00:40:24,959 --> 00:40:27,561 Don't touch my shit. All right? 1054 00:40:28,461 --> 00:40:29,664 - I'm going. 1055 00:40:30,798 --> 00:40:32,066 - Benji, don't go. 1056 00:40:32,199 --> 00:40:33,234 - Don't. Fucking stop grabbing my arms. 1057 00:40:33,367 --> 00:40:34,302 - Benji, fucking stay. 1058 00:40:34,434 --> 00:40:36,003 Just stay. Just stay. I'm sorry. 1059 00:40:36,137 --> 00:40:36,971 - Yeah. - Here. 1060 00:40:37,104 --> 00:40:37,872 - No. 1061 00:40:38,005 --> 00:40:39,273 I don't... 1062 00:40:39,407 --> 00:40:40,207 Fuck off. 1063 00:40:42,209 --> 00:40:45,579 - Benji, just don't go. Just stay. I'm sorry. 1064 00:40:45,713 --> 00:40:47,081 - Just don't fucking grab my arms again. 1065 00:40:47,214 --> 00:40:48,516 - Okay. Okay. 1066 00:40:48,649 --> 00:40:49,717 - Fucking hell. 1067 00:40:49,850 --> 00:40:51,252 - Just don't touch my shit. 1068 00:40:51,385 --> 00:40:53,486 You taking my shit for? 1069 00:40:55,022 --> 00:40:56,924 Look, I don't want anything serious. 1070 00:40:57,058 --> 00:40:58,926 Okay? I'm not looking for a relationship. 1071 00:40:59,060 --> 00:41:00,761 I'm really happy the way that things are. 1072 00:41:00,895 --> 00:41:03,965 If you're not, then that's fine but... 1073 00:41:04,098 --> 00:41:05,465 - I think I just wanna go back to be honest. 1074 00:41:05,599 --> 00:41:06,600 - Okay. You all right? 1075 00:41:06,734 --> 00:41:07,735 - I'm fine. 1076 00:41:07,868 --> 00:41:09,003 - Did I hurt you? - No. 1077 00:41:09,136 --> 00:41:11,706 (somber music) 1078 00:41:16,177 --> 00:41:17,244 And looking back, 1079 00:41:17,378 --> 00:41:19,347 I think this was the moment we both knew 1080 00:41:19,479 --> 00:41:22,149 that this wasn't gonna end well. 1081 00:41:54,115 --> 00:41:56,884 I really wish that moment had happened, 1082 00:41:57,018 --> 00:41:57,618 but 1083 00:41:57,752 --> 00:42:01,155 (record scratching) 1084 00:42:01,288 --> 00:42:05,793 he never would kiss me in front of other people. 1085 00:42:10,898 --> 00:42:12,666 - When in Amsterdam 1086 00:42:13,801 --> 00:42:15,002 have pancakes. 1087 00:42:15,136 --> 00:42:15,970 - Cheers. 1088 00:42:20,574 --> 00:42:23,512 - I'm sorry about yesterday. 1089 00:42:23,644 --> 00:42:25,479 I think I get my temper from my dad. 1090 00:42:25,613 --> 00:42:28,149 - You get it from somewhere. 1091 00:42:29,183 --> 00:42:30,684 Still see you dad? 1092 00:42:31,585 --> 00:42:32,620 - No mate. 1093 00:42:34,955 --> 00:42:38,459 I've not seen him since the late nineties. 1094 00:42:38,592 --> 00:42:39,927 (upbeat music) 1095 00:42:40,127 --> 00:42:43,964 - [Benji] Who doesn't love a nineties flashback? 1096 00:42:45,666 --> 00:42:46,967 (egg smashing) 1097 00:42:47,101 --> 00:42:49,870 And this might feel like a toxic origin story, 1098 00:42:50,004 --> 00:42:51,639 but people are complicated. 1099 00:42:51,772 --> 00:42:54,175 And I'm not excusing him. 1100 00:42:54,308 --> 00:42:57,512 When I heard this, I wanted to fix him. 1101 00:42:57,645 --> 00:42:58,712 I wanted him to be okay. 1102 00:42:58,846 --> 00:43:00,014 Morning dad. 1103 00:43:05,119 --> 00:43:06,454 Dad. 1104 00:43:06,587 --> 00:43:07,621 Dad. 1105 00:43:09,657 --> 00:43:11,792 I'll get you some food. 1106 00:43:12,593 --> 00:43:13,627 (upbeat music) 1107 00:43:13,761 --> 00:43:15,429 - [Benji] And then she came, 1108 00:43:15,564 --> 00:43:17,298 his Auntie Jackie. 1109 00:43:17,431 --> 00:43:18,567 Now, I'm not gonna lie, 1110 00:43:18,766 --> 00:43:21,869 on paper she is a bit of a gay icon. 1111 00:43:26,874 --> 00:43:29,009 (door clicking) 1112 00:43:29,143 --> 00:43:30,678 - You all right? 1113 00:43:31,645 --> 00:43:34,215 (bag rustling) 1114 00:43:41,689 --> 00:43:43,724 A hello would be nice. 1115 00:43:44,792 --> 00:43:49,663 Your dad's gone off and he's asked me to check in on you. 1116 00:43:50,498 --> 00:43:53,602 Well, fucking hell. I can go if you want. 1117 00:43:53,734 --> 00:43:54,902 There you go. 1118 00:43:55,102 --> 00:43:58,305 That's the proper man's drink that is. 1119 00:44:00,207 --> 00:44:01,709 - It's fucking hanging that. 1120 00:44:01,842 --> 00:44:02,776 - Oh, drink it up. - Why's it doing that? 1121 00:44:02,910 --> 00:44:04,645 - Bloody drink it up your poof. 1122 00:44:04,778 --> 00:44:06,380 - Would you rather have 1123 00:44:06,515 --> 00:44:10,885 a daughter that's his slag or a son that's gay? 1124 00:44:11,018 --> 00:44:12,386 (Jackie laughing) 1125 00:44:12,521 --> 00:44:16,390 - Would you rather a fanny dipped in cheese, 1126 00:44:17,791 --> 00:44:18,993 like cottage cheese 1127 00:44:19,126 --> 00:44:21,795 that's been out for like weeks 1128 00:44:21,929 --> 00:44:26,200 or a cock wrapped in Yorkshire pudding and gravy. 1129 00:44:27,735 --> 00:44:28,669 - Fanny, obviously. 1130 00:44:28,802 --> 00:44:29,803 - (laughs) You fucking liar. 1131 00:44:29,937 --> 00:44:30,905 - It would be the fanny. 1132 00:44:31,038 --> 00:44:32,006 - You love Yorkshire puddings. 1133 00:44:32,139 --> 00:44:33,073 - Yeah, but not round a dick. 1134 00:44:33,207 --> 00:44:34,108 It would obviously be fanny. 1135 00:44:34,241 --> 00:44:34,975 - Oh, no way. 1136 00:44:35,109 --> 00:44:36,410 You are absolute a virgin mate. 1137 00:44:36,545 --> 00:44:37,878 There's no way you've been near fanny. 1138 00:44:38,012 --> 00:44:38,913 - I'm not a virgin. 1139 00:44:39,046 --> 00:44:40,414 - (laughs) I can smell it. 1140 00:44:40,549 --> 00:44:41,682 - I'm not a fucking virgin. 1141 00:44:41,882 --> 00:44:46,220 - Oh, I've touched a nerve! (laughs) 1142 00:44:46,921 --> 00:44:47,855 (door knocking) 1143 00:44:47,988 --> 00:44:49,524 - Who's that? 1144 00:44:49,658 --> 00:44:50,758 - Oh, don't you worry. 1145 00:44:50,891 --> 00:44:52,393 You just stay down here. 1146 00:44:52,527 --> 00:44:54,328 Mommy's got to do a little work. 1147 00:44:54,461 --> 00:44:55,262 - Mommy? 1148 00:44:55,396 --> 00:44:56,163 - Sorry. Auntie Jackie. 1149 00:44:56,297 --> 00:44:59,668 (heels tapping) 1150 00:44:59,800 --> 00:45:00,734 You all right, Paul? 1151 00:45:00,868 --> 00:45:02,203 Come on in. Cash up front, yeah? 1152 00:45:02,336 --> 00:45:03,003 - Yeah. 1153 00:45:03,137 --> 00:45:04,138 - Great. 1154 00:45:04,838 --> 00:45:06,040 - Who's the kid? 1155 00:45:06,173 --> 00:45:09,644 - Oh, it's just my nephew. It's fine. 1156 00:45:09,777 --> 00:45:11,045 - I don't think he should be here. 1157 00:45:11,178 --> 00:45:15,082 - Well, he is not coming upstairs babe. 1158 00:45:15,216 --> 00:45:16,717 - Don't think I'm pretty keen on that. 1159 00:45:16,850 --> 00:45:17,851 - Oh, don't worry. 1160 00:45:17,985 --> 00:45:19,053 I've got the nappies. It's fine. 1161 00:45:19,186 --> 00:45:19,954 Come on. 1162 00:45:20,087 --> 00:45:21,322 Do you want me to slap you? 1163 00:45:21,455 --> 00:45:22,657 Call you- 1164 00:45:22,856 --> 00:45:23,891 - [Man] As long as he stays down there. 1165 00:45:24,091 --> 00:45:26,961 - [Jackie] Yeah, yeah. It'll be fine. 1166 00:45:30,064 --> 00:45:34,168 (classical instrumental music) 1167 00:45:37,905 --> 00:45:39,240 - [Jackie] Right, you fucking bastard. 1168 00:45:39,373 --> 00:45:40,808 You love this, don't you? (Jackie slapping) 1169 00:45:40,941 --> 00:45:41,909 Where's your dummy? (Jackie slapping) 1170 00:45:42,042 --> 00:45:43,277 Do you wanna suck on a dummy? 1171 00:45:43,410 --> 00:45:44,745 You fucking skanky baby. (Jackie slapping) 1172 00:45:44,878 --> 00:45:45,913 Oh, come on! (Jackie slapping) 1173 00:45:46,046 --> 00:45:47,481 - [Man] Please. - [Jackie] Oh! 1174 00:45:47,616 --> 00:45:48,382 Do you want another slap? 1175 00:45:48,516 --> 00:45:49,750 - [Man] Yeah. 1176 00:45:49,883 --> 00:45:51,252 - [Jackie] You've been a naughty baby. 1177 00:45:51,385 --> 00:45:52,386 - [Man] Please, yes. - [Jackie] A naughty baby. 1178 00:45:52,520 --> 00:45:53,120 - [Man] I'm so bad. 1179 00:45:53,254 --> 00:45:53,954 Okay. 1180 00:45:54,154 --> 00:45:55,389 - [Jackie] Wipe your own shit. 1181 00:45:55,590 --> 00:45:59,793 I've had enough of you, fucking horrible baby. 1182 00:46:02,463 --> 00:46:05,199 (bed thumping) 1183 00:46:06,066 --> 00:46:08,302 (upbeat music) 1184 00:46:08,435 --> 00:46:12,339 - I always feel a bit frisky after I've had a bit of action. 1185 00:46:12,473 --> 00:46:13,307 I saw you. 1186 00:46:14,676 --> 00:46:15,843 - What? 1187 00:46:15,976 --> 00:46:18,012 - Little pervert. 1188 00:46:18,145 --> 00:46:19,813 Were you watching him? 1189 00:46:19,947 --> 00:46:21,181 - No. 1190 00:46:22,617 --> 00:46:24,818 - Well, you can't have been wanking about me 1191 00:46:24,952 --> 00:46:27,321 because I'm your auntie. 1192 00:46:27,454 --> 00:46:29,323 That would be weird. 1193 00:46:31,025 --> 00:46:31,859 - Did he pay you? 1194 00:46:31,992 --> 00:46:32,993 - Yeah, £50. 1195 00:46:33,127 --> 00:46:34,962 - Ugh, you little slag. 1196 00:46:35,095 --> 00:46:35,929 - Don't talk to me like that. 1197 00:46:36,063 --> 00:46:38,499 Everyone pays for sex. 1198 00:46:38,633 --> 00:46:39,668 Nothing wrong with it. 1199 00:46:39,800 --> 00:46:42,102 - Yeah. Who do you pay for sex? 1200 00:46:42,236 --> 00:46:42,936 - Do you know what? 1201 00:46:43,070 --> 00:46:44,171 I would pay 1202 00:46:46,073 --> 00:46:49,410 £45 for Eric Cantona to do me from behind. 1203 00:46:49,544 --> 00:46:50,745 Really rough. 1204 00:46:50,878 --> 00:46:51,945 Love that. 1205 00:46:52,647 --> 00:46:53,581 It's his hands. 1206 00:46:53,715 --> 00:46:55,182 They're so big. 1207 00:46:56,551 --> 00:46:58,553 Oh, Banjo, Banjo, Banjo. 1208 00:47:00,555 --> 00:47:02,056 I bet you'd like Eric 1209 00:47:02,189 --> 00:47:03,357 up the bum. (laughs) 1210 00:47:03,490 --> 00:47:04,191 - He's mine. 1211 00:47:04,325 --> 00:47:05,359 - What? 1212 00:47:08,996 --> 00:47:11,065 - Did dad leave me a card out 1213 00:47:11,198 --> 00:47:12,900 or anything for my birthday? 1214 00:47:13,033 --> 00:47:15,069 - Is it your birthday? 1215 00:47:15,903 --> 00:47:17,071 - I mean, have you had sex before? 1216 00:47:17,204 --> 00:47:18,038 - Oh, my God. Don't ask him that. 1217 00:47:18,172 --> 00:47:19,106 You'll embarrass him. 1218 00:47:19,239 --> 00:47:20,675 - What? It's a simple question. 1219 00:47:20,809 --> 00:47:22,343 Have you or have you not? 1220 00:47:22,476 --> 00:47:23,410 - Yeah. 1221 00:47:23,545 --> 00:47:25,747 - There we go. Question answered. 1222 00:47:25,879 --> 00:47:27,981 - Right, you two pop upstairs 1223 00:47:28,115 --> 00:47:29,983 and, you know, pop his cherry. (laughs) 1224 00:47:30,117 --> 00:47:32,721 (woman sighing) 1225 00:47:32,853 --> 00:47:33,987 - What do you mean? 1226 00:47:34,121 --> 00:47:35,557 - Happy birthday Jakey? 1227 00:47:35,690 --> 00:47:36,990 - Oh, fuck off Jackie. 1228 00:47:37,124 --> 00:47:38,727 - Oh, come on. Chill out. 1229 00:47:38,859 --> 00:47:40,227 Come on, Jack. 1230 00:47:41,663 --> 00:47:42,764 - Jake. 1231 00:47:42,896 --> 00:47:45,966 - She's all right. She's dyslexic. 1232 00:47:46,100 --> 00:47:47,034 Don't be so worried. 1233 00:47:47,167 --> 00:47:48,936 You'll be all right. 1234 00:47:49,069 --> 00:47:50,170 Just take her from behind 1235 00:47:50,304 --> 00:47:52,406 and pretend she's George Clooney. 1236 00:47:52,540 --> 00:47:53,842 She's handsome. 1237 00:47:53,974 --> 00:47:55,744 She's got a strong nose. 1238 00:47:55,876 --> 00:47:57,111 You'll be all right. 1239 00:47:57,244 --> 00:47:58,879 - I'll try to keep her quiet. 1240 00:47:59,012 --> 00:48:00,515 (bed springs thumping) 1241 00:48:00,648 --> 00:48:04,318 - (laughs) Nice one. 1242 00:48:04,451 --> 00:48:06,353 Hello. (kisses) 1243 00:48:06,487 --> 00:48:08,857 Do you want to come and live with your auntie Jackie? 1244 00:48:08,989 --> 00:48:09,923 (bag rustling) 1245 00:48:10,057 --> 00:48:11,024 There we go. There you go. 1246 00:48:11,158 --> 00:48:12,426 That's nice, isn't it? 1247 00:48:12,560 --> 00:48:15,896 Fucking heavier than Oprah Winfrey. 1248 00:48:18,733 --> 00:48:21,001 (stairs creaking) 1249 00:48:21,135 --> 00:48:22,670 - Not gonna stay? 1250 00:48:22,804 --> 00:48:24,506 - No. (laughs) 1251 00:48:24,639 --> 00:48:26,508 It was only an hour. 1252 00:48:27,809 --> 00:48:29,611 - Was it good? 1253 00:48:29,744 --> 00:48:31,111 - It was fast. 1254 00:48:33,113 --> 00:48:34,549 Look, your auntie only paid for me 1255 00:48:34,682 --> 00:48:36,584 because she thought you were a wee poof. 1256 00:48:36,718 --> 00:48:41,623 She didn't think you're actually gonna go through with it. 1257 00:48:41,756 --> 00:48:42,456 (somber music) 1258 00:48:42,590 --> 00:48:44,925 (door thudding) 1259 00:48:45,058 --> 00:48:46,093 Banjo. 1260 00:48:48,462 --> 00:48:49,196 Excuse me. 1261 00:48:49,329 --> 00:48:50,264 Have you seen a lady with a dog? 1262 00:48:50,397 --> 00:48:51,432 Banjo! 1263 00:48:52,366 --> 00:48:55,135 - [Benji] He never did see that little dog again. 1264 00:48:55,269 --> 00:48:56,871 Apparently, she sold it for £40. 1265 00:48:57,004 --> 00:49:02,242 (glass smashing) (Jake screaming) 1266 00:49:09,316 --> 00:49:13,454 I don't think he saw any of his family again. 1267 00:49:16,323 --> 00:49:17,792 (dramatic music) (pencil scratching) 1268 00:49:17,926 --> 00:49:19,359 - [Mum] Benji, why's your phone been off for eight hours? 1269 00:49:19,493 --> 00:49:20,762 I'm worried. 1270 00:49:20,895 --> 00:49:22,429 You need to come home. 1271 00:49:22,564 --> 00:49:26,200 It's not gonna make you feel better being out there. 1272 00:49:26,333 --> 00:49:27,569 He's not coming back. 1273 00:49:27,702 --> 00:49:31,271 He's moved on and you need to and all. 1274 00:49:32,239 --> 00:49:34,174 - After putting myself in danger yesterday, 1275 00:49:34,308 --> 00:49:36,678 I still wake up and think, fuck it, 1276 00:49:36,811 --> 00:49:39,146 I'm gonna meet someone. 1277 00:49:39,279 --> 00:49:40,582 And I know what you're thinking, but 1278 00:49:40,715 --> 00:49:43,016 he looks like he's got a really nice face 1279 00:49:43,150 --> 00:49:45,920 and I'm gonna meet him somewhere public 1280 00:49:46,053 --> 00:49:47,522 in some toilets. 1281 00:49:47,655 --> 00:49:51,258 - I don't usually meet in public toilets. 1282 00:49:51,391 --> 00:49:52,760 - I mean, I thought it'd be a bit less awkward 1283 00:49:52,894 --> 00:49:56,564 than meeting outside Anne Frank's house. (laughs) 1284 00:49:56,698 --> 00:49:59,199 - Do you not just wanna like leave the toilets 1285 00:49:59,333 --> 00:50:01,201 and go get a coffee? 1286 00:50:02,336 --> 00:50:03,972 - I mean, I poked my head in the cubicles before 1287 00:50:04,104 --> 00:50:06,406 and they're pretty clean. 1288 00:50:07,675 --> 00:50:08,776 What you say? 1289 00:50:11,345 --> 00:50:12,780 - Okay. - Yeah? 1290 00:50:13,681 --> 00:50:16,383 - Okay. - All right, fuck it. Come on. 1291 00:50:16,518 --> 00:50:18,385 - Fuck it. - Fuck it. 1292 00:50:19,988 --> 00:50:22,557 So are you top or bottom? 1293 00:50:22,690 --> 00:50:23,658 - I'm vers. 1294 00:50:23,791 --> 00:50:24,893 - So bottom? 1295 00:50:25,025 --> 00:50:26,026 - No, I'm vers. (person urinating) 1296 00:50:26,159 --> 00:50:27,227 - Okay. 1297 00:50:28,061 --> 00:50:30,264 - Look, I can't hook up in toilet. 1298 00:50:30,397 --> 00:50:31,533 - No one's gonna come in. 1299 00:50:31,666 --> 00:50:32,867 - (laughs) It's really not my thing. 1300 00:50:33,001 --> 00:50:34,067 - No one's gonna come in. 1301 00:50:34,201 --> 00:50:35,670 (urinating continues) 1302 00:50:35,803 --> 00:50:36,804 (person passing gas) 1303 00:50:36,938 --> 00:50:39,139 - Shush. Shush. (Benji laughing) 1304 00:50:39,273 --> 00:50:40,675 (door squeaking) 1305 00:50:40,808 --> 00:50:43,611 (toilet flushing) 1306 00:50:45,345 --> 00:50:48,248 (door squeaking) 1307 00:50:49,216 --> 00:50:50,217 He's gone. 1308 00:50:51,285 --> 00:50:53,655 - Do you want a piss or something before you go? 1309 00:50:53,788 --> 00:50:54,488 - No. 1310 00:50:54,622 --> 00:50:55,523 - No, look. 1311 00:50:57,324 --> 00:51:00,862 You can literally smell shit in here. 1312 00:51:00,995 --> 00:51:02,429 - Do you not fancy me? 1313 00:51:02,564 --> 00:51:03,330 It's fine. 1314 00:51:04,231 --> 00:51:05,232 - Shush. 1315 00:51:05,365 --> 00:51:06,968 Let's just get a coffee. 1316 00:51:07,100 --> 00:51:08,135 No stress. 1317 00:51:09,136 --> 00:51:10,203 - Okay. 1318 00:51:10,337 --> 00:51:11,039 - Okay then? 1319 00:51:11,171 --> 00:51:12,439 - Okay then. 1320 00:51:12,574 --> 00:51:14,341 I'm Kieran. - Benji. 1321 00:51:16,744 --> 00:51:18,012 I'll do my belt up then. 1322 00:51:18,145 --> 00:51:19,581 (twinkling jingle) 1323 00:51:19,714 --> 00:51:20,648 - Nearly. 1324 00:51:20,782 --> 00:51:21,749 (Benji laughing) 1325 00:51:21,883 --> 00:51:23,183 - [Benji] Now, I am not gonna lie. 1326 00:51:23,317 --> 00:51:25,352 He gave me proper fizzy knickers. 1327 00:51:25,485 --> 00:51:28,756 But Kieran was escaping just like me. 1328 00:51:29,557 --> 00:51:32,527 His troubles sunk a little deeper than mine. 1329 00:51:32,660 --> 00:51:33,393 - Go on! 1330 00:51:33,528 --> 00:51:34,361 Go on! 1331 00:51:35,830 --> 00:51:38,432 - I need another drink. 1332 00:51:38,566 --> 00:51:39,801 - No, how much have you drank? 1333 00:51:39,934 --> 00:51:41,435 - You drive like this? 1334 00:51:41,569 --> 00:51:43,071 - Absolutely. You go to the bar. 1335 00:51:43,203 --> 00:51:43,972 I'll do the driving. 1336 00:51:44,104 --> 00:51:45,840 - Please. Stop! 1337 00:51:45,974 --> 00:51:46,941 - Who the fuck are you? 1338 00:51:47,075 --> 00:51:48,009 Fuck off. 1339 00:51:48,141 --> 00:51:48,843 - What? 1340 00:51:48,977 --> 00:51:49,911 - Fuck off. 1341 00:51:50,044 --> 00:51:51,512 Get out. 1342 00:51:51,646 --> 00:51:53,280 - [Benji] He kept pushing away the people he loved, 1343 00:51:53,413 --> 00:51:55,516 again and again. 1344 00:51:55,650 --> 00:51:58,820 (Kieran crying) 1345 00:51:58,953 --> 00:52:01,789 (siren wailing) 1346 00:52:04,792 --> 00:52:07,294 (Kieran chocking) 1347 00:52:07,427 --> 00:52:08,362 (Kieran shouting) 1348 00:52:08,495 --> 00:52:09,764 He ends up coming back to mine. 1349 00:52:09,897 --> 00:52:11,065 And to be honest, it feels fucking weird 1350 00:52:11,198 --> 00:52:13,367 being here with another guy. 1351 00:52:13,500 --> 00:52:15,268 - You okay? - Yeah. 1352 00:52:17,605 --> 00:52:20,173 - What's wrong? - Nothing. 1353 00:52:22,610 --> 00:52:23,811 - You seem a little bit... 1354 00:52:23,945 --> 00:52:25,445 - No, I'm just saying 1355 00:52:25,580 --> 00:52:27,048 that it'd be nice if we just did stuff together like... 1356 00:52:27,180 --> 00:52:29,117 - What? You gonna take me out? 1357 00:52:29,249 --> 00:52:30,852 - Yeah. - Where? 1358 00:52:30,985 --> 00:52:31,819 Pizza Hut? 1359 00:52:33,021 --> 00:52:35,155 - [Benji] Erm. I actually used to work at Pizza Hut 1360 00:52:35,288 --> 00:52:37,058 and it's got a really good salad bar. 1361 00:52:37,224 --> 00:52:37,992 - I don't want it like that. 1362 00:52:38,126 --> 00:52:39,359 We had an agreement. 1363 00:52:39,493 --> 00:52:40,028 We've already talked about this before. 1364 00:52:40,160 --> 00:52:40,962 - Right. 1365 00:52:41,095 --> 00:52:42,030 - Okay? 1366 00:52:42,162 --> 00:52:43,330 We come here, we get a girl. 1367 00:52:43,463 --> 00:52:44,899 Just chill. 1368 00:52:45,033 --> 00:52:47,334 Just like, just calm down a little bit. All right? 1369 00:52:47,467 --> 00:52:48,435 - All I'm trying to say is it's been three- 1370 00:52:48,569 --> 00:52:49,837 - Are you having fun? 1371 00:52:49,971 --> 00:52:51,171 Are you having a good time, me and you? 1372 00:52:51,304 --> 00:52:52,674 - [Benji] What? 1373 00:52:52,807 --> 00:52:53,975 - Are you having a good time? I said, me and you. 1374 00:52:54,108 --> 00:52:55,442 - Fucking hell. 1375 00:52:55,576 --> 00:52:57,377 What if I meet someone? 1376 00:52:57,512 --> 00:53:00,180 - (laughs) Where are you gonna meet someone? 1377 00:53:00,313 --> 00:53:01,415 - [Benji] What? 1378 00:53:01,582 --> 00:53:02,382 - Where are you gonna meet someone? 1379 00:53:02,550 --> 00:53:03,751 You don't do anything. 1380 00:53:03,951 --> 00:53:07,555 What, are you gonna meet someone better than me? 1381 00:53:08,288 --> 00:53:09,423 - I'm sort of still seeing somebody. 1382 00:53:09,557 --> 00:53:11,826 So it's all a bit like... 1383 00:53:11,959 --> 00:53:12,727 - Ah. 1384 00:53:12,860 --> 00:53:13,326 Okay. - Yeah. 1385 00:53:13,460 --> 00:53:14,494 - Really? 1386 00:53:15,963 --> 00:53:16,898 Cool. 1387 00:53:17,031 --> 00:53:18,066 All right, so I think, yeah, 1388 00:53:18,198 --> 00:53:20,034 I'll see ya, maybe. 1389 00:53:20,802 --> 00:53:22,502 - [Benji] Have you ever had that moment 1390 00:53:22,637 --> 00:53:23,771 when you realized that you might have become the arsehole? 1391 00:53:23,905 --> 00:53:25,405 (bell ringing) (melancholy music) 1392 00:53:25,807 --> 00:53:30,243 I mean, you're channeling some big dick energy there Benji. 1393 00:53:31,012 --> 00:53:32,647 I sometimes wonder if we'd have met when we were younger 1394 00:53:32,780 --> 00:53:35,983 if things would've been different. 1395 00:53:36,117 --> 00:53:37,852 - Would you rather 1396 00:53:37,985 --> 00:53:40,088 have everyone able to hear your thoughts 1397 00:53:40,220 --> 00:53:45,093 or you can hear everyone's thoughts in the entire world? 1398 00:53:45,993 --> 00:53:49,530 - I can hear everybody else's thoughts. 1399 00:53:50,531 --> 00:53:52,066 Would you rather 1400 00:53:52,800 --> 00:53:55,870 always scream or always whisper? 1401 00:53:59,239 --> 00:54:00,742 - Always scream. 1402 00:54:06,748 --> 00:54:08,348 Don't fucking do that to me. 1403 00:54:08,482 --> 00:54:09,884 Don't fucking do that to me. 1404 00:54:10,017 --> 00:54:11,418 I'm not fucking gay. 1405 00:54:11,552 --> 00:54:12,520 You pervert. 1406 00:54:12,653 --> 00:54:13,888 - Second thoughts. Maybe not. 1407 00:54:14,021 --> 00:54:15,523 (door knocking) 1408 00:54:15,656 --> 00:54:19,326 (floorboards creaking) 1409 00:54:21,662 --> 00:54:24,031 I feel like a bit of a prick to be honest. 1410 00:54:24,165 --> 00:54:24,866 - No, don't worry about it. 1411 00:54:24,999 --> 00:54:26,299 It's okay. 1412 00:54:26,433 --> 00:54:27,702 I'll have just have a little five minutes. 1413 00:54:27,835 --> 00:54:29,336 - Yeah, so I wanna tell you something. Okay? 1414 00:54:29,469 --> 00:54:31,773 - Just became a cycle that I was stuck in 1415 00:54:31,906 --> 00:54:34,575 and I'm still stuck in it now and we're not together. 1416 00:54:34,709 --> 00:54:36,077 - It's kind of like haunted, isn't it? 1417 00:54:36,210 --> 00:54:37,410 This place now. 1418 00:54:37,545 --> 00:54:38,913 - I feel like I'm still with him. 1419 00:54:39,046 --> 00:54:40,648 Do you know? Like I never, we never broke up. 1420 00:54:40,782 --> 00:54:43,050 We were never like officially together but 1421 00:54:43,184 --> 00:54:46,154 it feels like I'm still in it. 1422 00:54:46,286 --> 00:54:47,420 Like I'm deep in it 1423 00:54:47,555 --> 00:54:50,892 and I can't find the way out of it. 1424 00:54:51,025 --> 00:54:54,494 And then I can hear my mum from a few weeks ago saying... 1425 00:54:54,629 --> 00:54:57,031 - [Mum] "Stop talking about that dickhead 1426 00:54:57,165 --> 00:54:58,933 and find a nice guy." 1427 00:54:59,834 --> 00:55:04,304 (somber music) - It's getting late. 1428 00:55:12,180 --> 00:55:13,581 - [Benji] And then I realized 1429 00:55:13,714 --> 00:55:15,183 that this is the first time that I've fallen asleep 1430 00:55:15,315 --> 00:55:18,385 without drinking in over a year. 1431 00:55:23,356 --> 00:55:27,161 - (laughs) Thanks for that. 1432 00:55:27,295 --> 00:55:28,529 So be happy. 1433 00:55:32,266 --> 00:55:33,500 Come here. 1434 00:55:38,139 --> 00:55:39,106 See ya. - See ya. 1435 00:55:39,240 --> 00:55:40,708 I think this is the first time 1436 00:55:40,842 --> 00:55:43,878 that I've had someone back and not had sex with them. 1437 00:55:44,011 --> 00:55:45,378 We arranged to sit next to each other 1438 00:55:45,513 --> 00:55:47,515 on the flight back to Manchester. 1439 00:55:47,648 --> 00:55:49,183 I feel a bit giddy. 1440 00:55:49,317 --> 00:55:52,820 (melancholy music) 1441 00:55:52,954 --> 00:55:54,454 I'm starting to think that maybe coming here's 1442 00:55:54,589 --> 00:55:56,557 helping a little bit. 1443 00:56:03,798 --> 00:56:09,003 And then I'll see you in my head and it'll hurt again. 1444 00:56:09,570 --> 00:56:11,105 But maybe not as much. 1445 00:56:12,540 --> 00:56:15,610 (Jake laughing) 1446 00:56:28,189 --> 00:56:31,158 I just keep replaying when it all fell apart. 1447 00:56:31,292 --> 00:56:33,661 - Stop filming me, you cunt. 1448 00:56:33,794 --> 00:56:36,163 - Hello you mad cunt. (pencil scratching) 1449 00:56:36,297 --> 00:56:37,265 Benji boy. 1450 00:56:37,397 --> 00:56:39,033 Guess where I am. 1451 00:56:40,001 --> 00:56:41,535 Me and the lads had a fucking wild one 1452 00:56:41,669 --> 00:56:42,937 and we are in 1453 00:56:44,171 --> 00:56:45,373 Amsterdam (laughs) 1454 00:56:45,506 --> 00:56:46,741 and I know you're here this weekend. 1455 00:56:46,874 --> 00:56:48,776 So why don't you come out and meet us? 1456 00:56:48,910 --> 00:56:49,844 - [Benji] Bringing him here 1457 00:56:49,977 --> 00:56:51,212 was the worst idea in the world. 1458 00:56:51,345 --> 00:56:52,880 (energetic club music) 1459 00:56:53,014 --> 00:56:54,015 - Have a fucking hit have you? It's the fucking weekend. 1460 00:56:54,148 --> 00:56:55,283 - I don't want anything. 1461 00:56:55,415 --> 00:56:56,183 I told you stop acting like a couple 1462 00:56:56,317 --> 00:56:57,685 because we're not. 1463 00:56:57,818 --> 00:56:59,353 - [Benji] The second he met Ryan, his back was up. 1464 00:56:59,486 --> 00:57:00,855 It was like he wanted a fight. 1465 00:57:00,988 --> 00:57:02,455 - I haven't fucking told anyone anything. 1466 00:57:02,590 --> 00:57:03,724 Oi. 1467 00:57:03,858 --> 00:57:04,659 - What? Stop fucking touching me. 1468 00:57:04,792 --> 00:57:05,660 - Do you wanna go? 1469 00:57:05,793 --> 00:57:07,695 - Yeah, you go. Fuck off. 1470 00:57:07,828 --> 00:57:08,930 - Hey, you all right here, mate? 1471 00:57:09,063 --> 00:57:09,897 You good? 1472 00:57:11,832 --> 00:57:12,700 Get the fucking shots in. 1473 00:57:12,900 --> 00:57:14,068 - Yeah, I'm happy with that. 1474 00:57:14,268 --> 00:57:15,569 Yeah, definitely mate. You good, yeah? 1475 00:57:15,770 --> 00:57:18,639 - [Benji] Toxic masculinity initiated. 1476 00:57:18,973 --> 00:57:20,308 I feel like this is the start of a gay porn 1477 00:57:20,440 --> 00:57:22,510 that I once watched. 1478 00:57:22,643 --> 00:57:25,379 - Right? So I'm thinking strip club first. 1479 00:57:25,513 --> 00:57:26,948 I'm thinking brass. 1480 00:57:27,081 --> 00:57:28,683 I'm thinking burgers 'cause I'm fucking starving. 1481 00:57:28,816 --> 00:57:29,750 And then I'm thinking back to the brass' house. 1482 00:57:29,884 --> 00:57:31,118 What does that sound like? Yeah? 1483 00:57:31,252 --> 00:57:32,520 Hang on. Sorry. 1484 00:57:32,653 --> 00:57:34,221 Wait, are we playing fucking spin the bottle 1485 00:57:34,355 --> 00:57:35,856 like we're 12-year-old girls or something? 1486 00:57:35,990 --> 00:57:37,625 What? What? (glass rattling) 1487 00:57:37,758 --> 00:57:39,260 - You know what? I'm gonna go with dare, fuck it. 1488 00:57:39,393 --> 00:57:40,493 - [Group] Ooh! 1489 00:57:40,628 --> 00:57:41,429 - Let's go. Come on. - Big boy. 1490 00:57:41,562 --> 00:57:42,897 - All right. All right. 1491 00:57:43,030 --> 00:57:45,333 I dare you to piss in the glass and down it. 1492 00:57:45,465 --> 00:57:47,268 (group groaning) 1493 00:57:47,401 --> 00:57:48,402 Big boy! 1494 00:57:48,536 --> 00:57:49,603 - [Man] Come on. (group groaning) 1495 00:57:49,737 --> 00:57:52,440 - Hey, mate. It was a jungle. 1496 00:57:52,573 --> 00:57:54,875 (group groaning) 1497 00:57:55,009 --> 00:57:58,478 (upbeat music) (glass rattling) 1498 00:57:58,612 --> 00:58:00,014 - Truth or dare pal. 1499 00:58:00,147 --> 00:58:01,782 - You lot are fucking mad. I'll go for a truth. 1500 00:58:01,916 --> 00:58:03,784 Fuck that dare shit. (group laughing) 1501 00:58:03,918 --> 00:58:05,920 - Oh, seeing as it's my truth. 1502 00:58:06,053 --> 00:58:07,621 He said truth. I like that. 1503 00:58:07,755 --> 00:58:09,457 Are you two shagging? 1504 00:58:09,590 --> 00:58:10,424 - Ooh. 1505 00:58:11,359 --> 00:58:12,693 - You got a fucking problem or something? 1506 00:58:12,827 --> 00:58:14,562 - I've got no problem here mate. 1507 00:58:14,695 --> 00:58:16,297 You're the one with a problem 1508 00:58:16,430 --> 00:58:17,365 because I told you didn't I 1509 00:58:17,497 --> 00:58:19,100 that these two are defo shagging 1510 00:58:19,233 --> 00:58:20,768 but you can't admit it. 1511 00:58:20,901 --> 00:58:24,171 - All right, fuck it. Give me a dare. 1512 00:58:26,173 --> 00:58:27,241 - I dare you 1513 00:58:27,375 --> 00:58:29,210 to kiss one of these boys around this table. 1514 00:58:29,343 --> 00:58:30,478 - Hey, mate. Leave it. 1515 00:58:30,611 --> 00:58:34,015 (upbeat music continues) 1516 00:58:34,982 --> 00:58:37,551 - This really fucked me off. 1517 00:58:37,685 --> 00:58:38,386 - Whoa! 1518 00:58:38,519 --> 00:58:39,820 (group laughing) 1519 00:58:39,954 --> 00:58:42,790 - If you gonna do it lad, do it properly. 1520 00:58:42,923 --> 00:58:44,358 - What the fuck? (smacks) 1521 00:58:44,492 --> 00:58:47,461 - [Group] Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! (energetic rock music) 1522 00:58:47,595 --> 00:58:48,629 (head smashing) - Ah! 1523 00:58:48,763 --> 00:58:51,832 (men scuffling) 1524 00:58:53,234 --> 00:58:54,068 - Ah! 1525 00:58:56,637 --> 00:58:59,140 (game over tone) 1526 00:58:59,273 --> 00:59:00,541 - I try and remember 1527 00:59:00,674 --> 00:59:02,243 if I've always gone for toxic guys, like 1528 00:59:02,376 --> 00:59:03,778 where was the root of it? 1529 00:59:03,911 --> 00:59:07,448 (muffled upbeat music) 1530 00:59:07,581 --> 00:59:08,482 I know you. 1531 00:59:08,616 --> 00:59:09,717 - Yeah? 1532 00:59:09,850 --> 00:59:10,985 From where? 1533 00:59:13,054 --> 00:59:15,623 What's this you've got on? 1534 00:59:16,690 --> 00:59:17,591 - It's the god of love. 1535 00:59:17,725 --> 00:59:19,060 - God of love? 1536 00:59:20,895 --> 00:59:22,763 I'm gonna go and get a drink. 1537 00:59:22,897 --> 00:59:23,831 Do you want anything? 1538 00:59:23,964 --> 00:59:25,399 - [Benji] Now, this moment here 1539 00:59:25,534 --> 00:59:26,767 is a moment where I probably could have got with a 1540 00:59:26,901 --> 00:59:29,870 really, really nice guy, but... 1541 00:59:30,604 --> 00:59:31,605 - Watch where you're going mate. 1542 00:59:31,739 --> 00:59:34,308 Fuck me. (sniffs) 1543 00:59:34,442 --> 00:59:35,676 - [Benji] Now everyone knew 1544 00:59:35,810 --> 00:59:38,212 that Louis Jones was an absolute slag. 1545 00:59:38,345 --> 00:59:39,680 - [Narrator] All aboard! 1546 00:59:39,880 --> 00:59:43,851 - [Benji] But everyone wanted to sleep with him. 1547 00:59:46,287 --> 00:59:50,491 - Here, have a look at this. (laughs) 1548 00:59:50,658 --> 00:59:54,161 Oh fuck me, I'm fit. (laughs) 1549 00:59:54,295 --> 00:59:55,296 Aren't I? 1550 00:59:55,429 --> 00:59:56,263 - Yeah. 1551 01:00:00,334 --> 01:00:02,269 - You take siv? 1552 01:00:02,403 --> 01:00:03,404 - Yeah. - Yeah? 1553 01:00:03,538 --> 01:00:05,439 - Yeah. - Get in there then. 1554 01:00:05,574 --> 01:00:10,545 - [Benji] And that was the first time that I got chlamydia. 1555 01:00:10,678 --> 01:00:12,246 - It's fucking too much. 1556 01:00:12,379 --> 01:00:13,881 When we were in there you're like touching me all the time. 1557 01:00:14,014 --> 01:00:14,949 Like you're making out that we're together. 1558 01:00:15,082 --> 01:00:17,318 We're not fucking together. 1559 01:00:18,719 --> 01:00:20,921 (sighs) 1560 01:00:24,859 --> 01:00:27,962 (cries) I'm sorry. 1561 01:00:41,976 --> 01:00:44,678 (whimsical music) 1562 01:00:44,812 --> 01:00:45,946 - We spent the rest of that trip pretending 1563 01:00:46,080 --> 01:00:48,349 everything was all right. 1564 01:00:50,451 --> 01:00:51,752 Sometimes I'd look at him 1565 01:00:51,886 --> 01:00:54,755 and I'd think I'm so lucky to be with him. 1566 01:00:54,889 --> 01:00:56,023 It's pathetic, 1567 01:00:58,425 --> 01:00:59,660 but my heart was hurting. 1568 01:00:59,793 --> 01:01:02,963 - Just give me some space for a bit. 1569 01:01:16,443 --> 01:01:20,114 What do you wanna do tonight then? 1570 01:01:20,247 --> 01:01:21,348 - Just dunno. 1571 01:01:21,482 --> 01:01:22,683 Going home tomorrow, aren't we, so just... 1572 01:01:22,816 --> 01:01:24,285 - Yeah, yeah, exactly. 1573 01:01:24,418 --> 01:01:25,620 Have a little blowout. 1574 01:01:25,753 --> 01:01:28,789 Get a girl, some weed, some booze. 1575 01:01:29,757 --> 01:01:32,793 - I was gonna talk to you about 1576 01:01:32,927 --> 01:01:36,363 just like pausing for a bit after this. 1577 01:01:38,732 --> 01:01:40,234 Just a little bit. 1578 01:01:41,936 --> 01:01:43,737 - What do you mean? 1579 01:01:43,871 --> 01:01:45,072 - It's just, 1580 01:01:45,873 --> 01:01:48,475 I think about you when we're not together 1581 01:01:48,610 --> 01:01:52,913 and I know we've got an arrangement and... 1582 01:01:53,047 --> 01:01:54,683 - Where has this all come from? 1583 01:01:54,815 --> 01:01:58,786 - I just, I feel like it's getting a bit much for me 1584 01:01:58,919 --> 01:02:01,855 to stay in it at the minute 1585 01:02:01,989 --> 01:02:03,290 because it's, you know, 1586 01:02:03,424 --> 01:02:04,959 you can feel it start fucking up your head 1587 01:02:05,092 --> 01:02:07,828 and I just, I don't want to get there with it. 1588 01:02:07,962 --> 01:02:10,097 So I think we'll just pause it for now. 1589 01:02:10,231 --> 01:02:12,733 I can't even text you when I'm not with you. 1590 01:02:12,866 --> 01:02:13,901 So it's... 1591 01:02:16,036 --> 01:02:17,505 - Yeah, 'cause we had an agreement, 1592 01:02:17,639 --> 01:02:19,907 but like what does that mean? 1593 01:02:20,040 --> 01:02:21,809 You mean you, 1594 01:02:21,942 --> 01:02:25,179 what, you've got feelings for me? What? 1595 01:02:27,081 --> 01:02:30,084 - I'm struggling a bit with it. 1596 01:02:30,217 --> 01:02:31,852 - Yeah, but I don't want it. 1597 01:02:31,986 --> 01:02:32,753 I don't want that. 1598 01:02:32,920 --> 01:02:35,055 I don't want it to end. 1599 01:02:41,795 --> 01:02:43,063 Can I just be 1600 01:02:45,199 --> 01:02:48,335 brutally honest for a little bit. 1601 01:02:55,442 --> 01:02:57,044 When I'm at home, 1602 01:02:58,045 --> 01:03:01,081 I've got so much stuff going on, 1603 01:03:03,784 --> 01:03:05,252 my mind is a mess. 1604 01:03:06,487 --> 01:03:08,355 I'm so fucked up and 1605 01:03:15,664 --> 01:03:16,930 I'm not happy 1606 01:03:21,368 --> 01:03:26,140 and I don't know what to do to get myself out of it. 1607 01:03:27,241 --> 01:03:28,876 But then, when I'm here 1608 01:03:29,009 --> 01:03:30,444 and I'm with you, 1609 01:03:40,120 --> 01:03:42,256 everything just feels right. 1610 01:03:42,389 --> 01:03:43,525 It just feels... 1611 01:03:45,159 --> 01:03:47,328 My head just feels calm. 1612 01:03:53,267 --> 01:03:55,269 (sighs) 1613 01:04:08,616 --> 01:04:11,852 Uber will be here in five minutes. 1614 01:04:12,853 --> 01:04:13,822 I can't do next month, 1615 01:04:14,021 --> 01:04:16,457 but maybe the next two months? 1616 01:04:18,025 --> 01:04:19,026 - Why? 1617 01:04:20,194 --> 01:04:22,062 - Just got stuff on. 1618 01:04:22,764 --> 01:04:24,031 - What stuff? 1619 01:04:24,932 --> 01:04:26,233 - Just stuff. 1620 01:04:29,069 --> 01:04:30,437 - Just 1621 01:04:30,572 --> 01:04:32,272 completely honest. 1622 01:04:33,073 --> 01:04:35,342 Are you seeing someone? 1623 01:04:35,476 --> 01:04:36,043 - No. 1624 01:04:36,176 --> 01:04:37,978 - No. Look at me. 1625 01:04:39,279 --> 01:04:40,815 Are you seeing someone? 1626 01:04:40,948 --> 01:04:42,249 - Benji, no. 1627 01:04:42,383 --> 01:04:45,252 ♪ I just don't know which way to go ♪ 1628 01:04:45,386 --> 01:04:50,224 ♪ When we're together we're strong ♪ 1629 01:04:50,357 --> 01:04:52,159 (laughs) What are you laughing at? 1630 01:04:52,292 --> 01:04:53,193 - Oh, do you know what? 1631 01:04:53,327 --> 01:04:54,629 That is the best one yet. 1632 01:04:54,763 --> 01:04:56,196 - You love my cringe though, don't you? 1633 01:04:56,330 --> 01:04:58,932 - [Olivia] Do I? (laughs) - Yeah, you do. 1634 01:04:59,066 --> 01:05:00,635 - Don't give up the day job yet, will you? 1635 01:05:00,769 --> 01:05:06,106 - (laughs) Give me some good news before I go away. 1636 01:05:08,108 --> 01:05:09,910 - Do you know what I was thinking? 1637 01:05:10,043 --> 01:05:10,978 - [Jake] What? 1638 01:05:11,111 --> 01:05:13,247 - Why don't I come with you? 1639 01:05:13,380 --> 01:05:15,082 - Ah, baby. You'd be bored. 1640 01:05:15,215 --> 01:05:16,584 - I'd be bored? - Yeah. 1641 01:05:16,718 --> 01:05:18,485 - Bored in Amsterdam? 1642 01:05:18,620 --> 01:05:20,722 Come on, I'm sure I can find something 1643 01:05:20,855 --> 01:05:22,456 to keep me entertained. 1644 01:05:22,590 --> 01:05:24,191 - Well, I'm gonna keep you locked up 1645 01:05:24,324 --> 01:05:25,593 so you can't go anywhere. 1646 01:05:25,727 --> 01:05:29,062 - Locked up? (laughs) (romantic music) 1647 01:05:29,196 --> 01:05:30,364 Give me a snuggle. 1648 01:05:30,497 --> 01:05:32,734 Mm. Love you. - See you later. 1649 01:05:32,867 --> 01:05:34,234 I love you too. 1650 01:05:34,368 --> 01:05:35,469 - Don't do anything I wouldn't do. 1651 01:05:35,603 --> 01:05:36,503 (Jake laughing) 1652 01:05:36,638 --> 01:05:37,806 Best behavior. 1653 01:05:37,938 --> 01:05:38,972 Call me when you get there, yeah? 1654 01:05:39,106 --> 01:05:41,375 - I will. - Okay, bye. 1655 01:05:41,509 --> 01:05:42,811 It's only me. 1656 01:05:42,943 --> 01:05:45,179 Just checking that you've landed and you're all right. 1657 01:05:45,312 --> 01:05:46,548 You've not phone me back yet 1658 01:05:46,681 --> 01:05:48,182 so I'm just checking that you've landed 1659 01:05:48,315 --> 01:05:49,116 and everything's fine. (instrumental music) 1660 01:05:49,249 --> 01:05:50,184 One day, which day? 1661 01:05:50,317 --> 01:05:51,686 - It just depends what happens. 1662 01:05:51,820 --> 01:05:52,953 - Sunday or Monday? - I don't know, obviously. 1663 01:05:53,086 --> 01:05:54,889 I'll know more when I get there. 1664 01:05:55,022 --> 01:05:56,256 - (laughing) Oh, fucking hell. 1665 01:05:56,390 --> 01:05:57,291 - [Phone Operator] This person's phone 1666 01:05:57,424 --> 01:05:58,927 is currently unavailable. 1667 01:05:59,059 --> 01:05:59,894 Please try later. 1668 01:06:00,027 --> 01:06:01,161 - I'm so happy. 1669 01:06:01,295 --> 01:06:04,064 No, I've not even told him yet. 1670 01:06:06,099 --> 01:06:07,134 - Okay? 1671 01:06:09,002 --> 01:06:09,871 Hi. 1672 01:06:10,003 --> 01:06:11,539 - Don't touch me - Baby. 1673 01:06:11,673 --> 01:06:12,507 - No. 1674 01:06:13,641 --> 01:06:14,676 - What's up? 1675 01:06:16,678 --> 01:06:17,712 Baby, what's wrong? 1676 01:06:17,846 --> 01:06:19,514 - You know what's wrong? 1677 01:06:19,647 --> 01:06:21,048 - I don't know what's up. What's wrong? 1678 01:06:21,181 --> 01:06:22,082 I've just come back from three days. 1679 01:06:22,216 --> 01:06:22,951 I've not seen you in ages. 1680 01:06:23,083 --> 01:06:24,017 What's going on? 1681 01:06:24,151 --> 01:06:25,385 And a nice hello would be good. 1682 01:06:25,520 --> 01:06:26,987 - So why haven't you responded to like 1683 01:06:27,120 --> 01:06:28,388 the hundred missed calls that I've given you? 1684 01:06:28,523 --> 01:06:30,090 - Baby, you know I've been busy. 1685 01:06:30,224 --> 01:06:31,325 - [Olivia] So you've not seen them? 1686 01:06:31,458 --> 01:06:32,627 - I've been in and out meetings. 1687 01:06:32,760 --> 01:06:33,895 I've been with people constantly. 1688 01:06:34,027 --> 01:06:36,196 My phone has been playing up. 1689 01:06:36,330 --> 01:06:37,699 - Do you know what annoys me the most? 1690 01:06:37,832 --> 01:06:39,534 That you've got no consideration for me at all, 1691 01:06:39,667 --> 01:06:41,001 that you've got no care, 1692 01:06:41,134 --> 01:06:43,505 that, you know, something could have been wrong with me. 1693 01:06:43,638 --> 01:06:45,507 You know, it could have been an emergency. Who knows? 1694 01:06:45,640 --> 01:06:47,174 But you don't actually even think? 1695 01:06:47,307 --> 01:06:48,108 - Is there anything wrong with you? 1696 01:06:48,242 --> 01:06:49,176 You look fine to me. 1697 01:06:49,309 --> 01:06:50,545 There's nothing wrong is there? 1698 01:06:50,678 --> 01:06:51,813 - You don't even, that's what I mean. 1699 01:06:51,946 --> 01:06:53,180 You don't even know the news 1700 01:06:53,313 --> 01:06:54,716 and everybody else knows and you don't know 1701 01:06:54,849 --> 01:06:55,950 because you couldn't even be arsed to text back 1702 01:06:56,083 --> 01:06:57,351 or call back or anything. 1703 01:06:57,484 --> 01:07:00,688 - What news? What you talking about? 1704 01:07:01,756 --> 01:07:03,490 - I'm pregnant. 1705 01:07:03,625 --> 01:07:04,559 - What? 1706 01:07:04,692 --> 01:07:06,059 You're pregnant? 1707 01:07:06,193 --> 01:07:07,595 - Yeah. 1708 01:07:07,729 --> 01:07:09,363 - Baby, this is amazing. 1709 01:07:09,496 --> 01:07:11,633 I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry 1710 01:07:11,766 --> 01:07:12,834 but that is amazing. 1711 01:07:12,967 --> 01:07:14,234 That is beautiful news. 1712 01:07:14,368 --> 01:07:16,203 It was just a mad weekend. 1713 01:07:16,336 --> 01:07:17,304 I'm so, so sorry. 1714 01:07:17,437 --> 01:07:19,507 Come here. I love you. Please. 1715 01:07:19,641 --> 01:07:22,175 - Should we go for some food tomorrow night? 1716 01:07:22,309 --> 01:07:25,445 I want to try that new place. 1717 01:07:25,580 --> 01:07:27,549 - Can't tomorrow night babe. 1718 01:07:27,682 --> 01:07:28,917 (lounge music) 1719 01:07:29,049 --> 01:07:30,818 - [Olivia] Why not? 1720 01:07:32,319 --> 01:07:34,556 - [Jake] I just got some work stuff. 1721 01:07:34,689 --> 01:07:38,392 - [Olivia] Yeah, I meant tomorrow night. 1722 01:07:38,526 --> 01:07:40,795 - Yeah, I've got a meeting. 1723 01:07:40,929 --> 01:07:41,763 It's... 1724 01:07:43,096 --> 01:07:44,398 'Cause of the time difference, 1725 01:07:44,532 --> 01:07:48,135 it's gonna start quite late tomorrow, I think. 1726 01:07:48,268 --> 01:07:50,237 We'll go another day. 1727 01:07:52,507 --> 01:07:53,340 - Okay. 1728 01:07:57,011 --> 01:08:00,113 (melancholy music) 1729 01:08:01,549 --> 01:08:04,652 - So have you thought of any names yet? 1730 01:08:04,786 --> 01:08:06,286 - Yeah, yeah, I have. 1731 01:08:06,420 --> 01:08:08,923 I'm thinking Hugo if it's a boy 1732 01:08:09,057 --> 01:08:11,559 and maybe Lisa if it's a girl. 1733 01:08:11,693 --> 01:08:13,493 - [Friend] Oh, that's so cute. 1734 01:08:13,628 --> 01:08:17,765 (ominous music) (Oliva gasping) 1735 01:08:17,899 --> 01:08:19,333 - Jake. 1736 01:08:19,466 --> 01:08:21,703 Jake, I think there's something up with the baby. 1737 01:08:21,836 --> 01:08:22,704 Please. 1738 01:08:24,872 --> 01:08:28,509 - Just saying he's not messaged you in a while, has he? 1739 01:08:28,643 --> 01:08:30,545 - [Olivia] No, it's been a few days, but he's really busy. 1740 01:08:30,678 --> 01:08:32,947 - [Jake] Baby, I'm sorry I wasn't there. 1741 01:08:33,081 --> 01:08:34,181 - Are you seeing someone else? 1742 01:08:34,314 --> 01:08:35,415 I'm not throwing it on you. 1743 01:08:35,550 --> 01:08:36,618 I've been saying it for a long time 1744 01:08:36,751 --> 01:08:38,452 and I'm done now. - Please. 1745 01:08:38,586 --> 01:08:39,286 No, I don't want you to go. - Don't please me anymore. 1746 01:08:39,419 --> 01:08:40,822 - Don't leave. 1747 01:08:40,955 --> 01:08:42,557 - Don't start this again because this is what you do. 1748 01:08:42,690 --> 01:08:44,124 - Baby. It's not my fault that the baby's gone. 1749 01:08:44,257 --> 01:08:45,593 It's not my fault. - We've talked about it. 1750 01:08:45,727 --> 01:08:46,828 We've talked about it over and over again. 1751 01:08:46,961 --> 01:08:47,862 There's nothing else to say. 1752 01:08:47,996 --> 01:08:48,896 - [Jake] Don't walk away. 1753 01:08:49,030 --> 01:08:49,964 Just stay with me, please. 1754 01:08:50,098 --> 01:08:51,365 - Stay with you for what? 1755 01:08:51,498 --> 01:08:52,399 - [Jake] Just stay, please. - For what? 1756 01:08:52,533 --> 01:08:53,801 - I don't want you to go. 1757 01:08:53,935 --> 01:08:55,235 Please, I promise I'll be better. Please. 1758 01:08:55,369 --> 01:08:56,604 - This is what you do all the time. 1759 01:08:56,738 --> 01:09:00,173 No, I can't do this anymore, Jake. 1760 01:09:01,075 --> 01:09:02,342 - Just stay with me. 1761 01:09:02,476 --> 01:09:05,546 I'll be better, I promise. I'm sorry. 1762 01:09:05,680 --> 01:09:08,348 (melancholy music continues) 1763 01:09:08,482 --> 01:09:10,450 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 1764 01:09:19,493 --> 01:09:21,796 - [Benji] She got pregnant again soon after 1765 01:09:21,929 --> 01:09:26,067 and that arsehole still didn't end it with me. 1766 01:09:26,199 --> 01:09:28,036 I had no fucking idea. 1767 01:09:29,070 --> 01:09:32,272 I don't know what I'd have done if I'd known. 1768 01:09:32,406 --> 01:09:36,276 I like to think I would've ended things, but 1769 01:09:38,311 --> 01:09:41,348 the last trip together felt different. 1770 01:09:41,481 --> 01:09:43,818 We didn't have sex. 1771 01:09:43,951 --> 01:09:45,119 We didn't kiss, 1772 01:09:45,252 --> 01:09:46,120 didn't touch, 1773 01:09:46,319 --> 01:09:48,723 we didn't even really talk. 1774 01:09:49,624 --> 01:09:51,726 And the whole time we were walking round, 1775 01:09:51,859 --> 01:09:53,861 I don't know, I just kept thinking it, 1776 01:09:53,995 --> 01:09:54,996 it felt like an end. 1777 01:09:55,129 --> 01:09:57,165 It felt different. 1778 01:09:57,297 --> 01:10:01,201 (gentle melancholy music) 1779 01:10:07,441 --> 01:10:08,643 And when we got home and I didn't hear from you, 1780 01:10:08,776 --> 01:10:11,879 I did what any logical, rational, 1781 01:10:12,013 --> 01:10:13,715 crazy ex would do. 1782 01:10:15,550 --> 01:10:17,518 I turned up at your house. 1783 01:10:17,652 --> 01:10:18,586 - I don't know about you babe, 1784 01:10:18,720 --> 01:10:21,321 but I'm absolutely starving. 1785 01:10:21,455 --> 01:10:22,890 (phone ringing) 1786 01:10:23,024 --> 01:10:24,759 You not getting that? 1787 01:10:26,928 --> 01:10:28,495 Should we do it with some garlic bread? 1788 01:10:28,629 --> 01:10:29,731 - Oh, yeah. That sounds good. 1789 01:10:29,864 --> 01:10:31,199 Baby, could you just take the bag. 1790 01:10:31,331 --> 01:10:32,600 I'm just gonna make a phone call. 1791 01:10:32,734 --> 01:10:35,703 - [Olivia] Yeah, I'll put tea on. 1792 01:10:37,270 --> 01:10:38,338 - What the fuck are you doing here? 1793 01:10:38,472 --> 01:10:39,272 - Is that your girlfriend? 1794 01:10:39,406 --> 01:10:41,374 - Shut the fuck up. 1795 01:10:41,509 --> 01:10:43,010 Shut the fuck up. 1796 01:10:43,144 --> 01:10:45,546 If you turn up at my house again I'll fucking kill you. 1797 01:10:45,680 --> 01:10:48,683 Do you hear me? (Benji moaning) 1798 01:10:48,816 --> 01:10:49,617 Fuck off. 1799 01:10:51,485 --> 01:10:54,254 (melancholy music) 1800 01:10:54,387 --> 01:10:57,357 (Jake panting) 1801 01:11:01,095 --> 01:11:02,663 - Jake? 1802 01:11:02,797 --> 01:11:03,965 Jake? 1803 01:11:04,098 --> 01:11:04,966 Jake? 1804 01:11:05,099 --> 01:11:06,901 What's wrong? 1805 01:11:07,034 --> 01:11:08,301 Babe, what's wrong? 1806 01:11:08,435 --> 01:11:10,238 - I can't breathe. - What's up with you? 1807 01:11:10,370 --> 01:11:12,206 - What do you mean you can't breathe? 1808 01:11:12,339 --> 01:11:13,641 What's wrong? 1809 01:11:16,177 --> 01:11:18,445 Baby, what's up with you? 1810 01:11:23,251 --> 01:11:24,317 Are you okay? 1811 01:11:30,423 --> 01:11:31,893 - Please, look at your mother. 1812 01:11:32,026 --> 01:11:33,326 Look at me. 1813 01:11:33,460 --> 01:11:35,395 Get a grip, all right? 1814 01:11:35,530 --> 01:11:36,496 Let them go. 1815 01:11:36,631 --> 01:11:38,833 Just let it all go. All right? 1816 01:11:38,966 --> 01:11:40,935 - And then he started ignoring my messages 1817 01:11:41,068 --> 01:11:42,670 and it fucking hurt. 1818 01:11:42,804 --> 01:11:43,938 I started meeting people. 1819 01:11:44,071 --> 01:11:46,073 I wanted to be treated like shit. 1820 01:11:46,207 --> 01:11:48,843 But none of them were him. 1821 01:11:48,976 --> 01:11:50,978 I mean, this guy's not even close. 1822 01:11:51,112 --> 01:11:52,046 What are you gonna do to me? 1823 01:11:52,180 --> 01:11:53,581 - Yeah? What are you into? 1824 01:11:53,714 --> 01:11:55,082 - I want you to tell me what to do. 1825 01:11:55,216 --> 01:11:56,017 Dominate me. 1826 01:11:56,150 --> 01:11:57,450 - Yeah? 1827 01:11:57,585 --> 01:11:59,086 I can be dominant. 1828 01:11:59,220 --> 01:12:01,122 Yeah. Yeah. (slaps) 1829 01:12:01,255 --> 01:12:02,190 Was that too hard? 1830 01:12:02,322 --> 01:12:05,159 - (laughs) No. - No. 1831 01:12:05,293 --> 01:12:07,695 (Benji laughing) 1832 01:12:07,829 --> 01:12:08,863 - What? 1833 01:12:08,996 --> 01:12:10,430 - Mate, it's not really working is it. 1834 01:12:10,565 --> 01:12:11,464 - [Date] Oh, it is. Come on, come on. 1835 01:12:11,599 --> 01:12:12,533 Get on the floor. Come on. 1836 01:12:12,667 --> 01:12:13,601 - He's blocked me on Instagram. 1837 01:12:13,734 --> 01:12:14,569 He's blocked me on Facebook. 1838 01:12:14,702 --> 01:12:15,536 Like all the socials. 1839 01:12:15,670 --> 01:12:16,938 Fucked off my number. 1840 01:12:17,071 --> 01:12:17,939 Like literally, he's not spoke to me now for like 1841 01:12:18,072 --> 01:12:18,773 two months. 1842 01:12:18,906 --> 01:12:20,041 (indie music) 1843 01:12:20,174 --> 01:12:21,341 - [Jake] Benji, if you don't leave me alone, 1844 01:12:21,474 --> 01:12:22,442 I'll call the fucking police. 1845 01:12:22,577 --> 01:12:23,277 I'll get a restraining order. 1846 01:12:23,410 --> 01:12:24,178 Now, fuck off. 1847 01:12:24,312 --> 01:12:25,713 It's embarrassing. 1848 01:12:25,847 --> 01:12:27,782 Leaving to have me in your life. You're obsessed. 1849 01:12:27,915 --> 01:12:30,618 - We had one last trip booked. 1850 01:12:31,285 --> 01:12:32,320 I turned up to the airport. 1851 01:12:32,452 --> 01:12:34,121 Yeah, I know it seems crazy, 1852 01:12:34,255 --> 01:12:37,124 but I thought he might be there. 1853 01:12:52,372 --> 01:12:53,641 (phone dinging) 1854 01:12:53,841 --> 01:12:57,377 And then, I got a location pin from him and 1855 01:12:58,411 --> 01:13:03,618 I knew this was the last time that I was ever gonna see him. 1856 01:13:05,186 --> 01:13:06,453 (dramatic music) 1857 01:13:06,587 --> 01:13:09,523 So here we are again at the fucking end. 1858 01:13:09,657 --> 01:13:10,925 I mean, how did she not know 1859 01:13:11,058 --> 01:13:15,096 he was a little bit gay with that car? 1860 01:13:15,229 --> 01:13:16,063 - Finally. 1861 01:13:23,403 --> 01:13:24,639 Listen. 1862 01:13:25,873 --> 01:13:30,311 Mate, you can't just turn up at my house unannounced. 1863 01:13:30,443 --> 01:13:32,380 It's not on. (Benji laughing) 1864 01:13:32,513 --> 01:13:33,214 Why are you laughing? 1865 01:13:33,347 --> 01:13:34,248 You can't. 1866 01:13:34,382 --> 01:13:35,750 I've said that like, 1867 01:13:35,883 --> 01:13:38,920 there's certain boundaries and you crossed it. 1868 01:13:39,053 --> 01:13:39,654 Mate, I can't. 1869 01:13:39,787 --> 01:13:41,989 I can't do this anymore. 1870 01:13:43,490 --> 01:13:44,725 Okay? 1871 01:13:46,260 --> 01:13:48,461 - Do you know I was sat at the airport today 1872 01:13:48,596 --> 01:13:50,364 and I was thinking 1873 01:13:50,497 --> 01:13:52,099 so many fucking times, yeah, 1874 01:13:52,233 --> 01:13:54,501 that you could have said to me, finish this. 1875 01:13:54,635 --> 01:13:56,170 Like, just like, 1876 01:13:56,304 --> 01:13:58,239 I don't understand like why you fucking carried this on 1877 01:13:58,372 --> 01:14:00,241 and do you know how much this has fucked me up? 1878 01:14:00,374 --> 01:14:02,143 - Fucking hell man. 1879 01:14:03,077 --> 01:14:04,211 Well, you were having a good time 1880 01:14:04,345 --> 01:14:05,279 at the time though, weren't you? 1881 01:14:05,413 --> 01:14:06,347 - Well, you fucking used me. 1882 01:14:06,479 --> 01:14:07,447 - You used me. 1883 01:14:07,581 --> 01:14:08,516 - No, you fucking used me. 1884 01:14:08,649 --> 01:14:09,449 - Shut the fuck up. (thumps) 1885 01:14:09,583 --> 01:14:10,618 Fucking shout at me. 1886 01:14:10,751 --> 01:14:12,553 Shut the fuck up. 1887 01:14:25,465 --> 01:14:27,268 - So when I was at yours, yeah, 1888 01:14:27,401 --> 01:14:29,203 the girl that I seen you with... 1889 01:14:29,337 --> 01:14:31,806 - (groans) 1890 01:14:33,341 --> 01:14:34,375 Yeah, what? 1891 01:14:34,742 --> 01:14:39,046 - So like when we first met, were you with her? 1892 01:14:40,681 --> 01:14:44,051 - (sighs) Yes. 1893 01:14:44,185 --> 01:14:46,921 - (laughs) Okay. 1894 01:14:53,427 --> 01:14:55,096 So, go on then, what's her name? 1895 01:14:55,229 --> 01:14:57,331 - Whose fucking name? - Whose fucking name? 1896 01:14:57,465 --> 01:15:00,134 Whose fucking name do you think? 1897 01:15:05,072 --> 01:15:06,540 - Olivia. 1898 01:15:06,674 --> 01:15:07,708 - Olivia. 1899 01:15:10,211 --> 01:15:12,513 - So when we used to go away, right? 1900 01:15:12,646 --> 01:15:14,281 So you used to be having sex with me, yeah, 1901 01:15:14,415 --> 01:15:15,549 you'd fly back and then what? 1902 01:15:15,750 --> 01:15:19,887 Would you just go back and fuck her? 1903 01:15:20,021 --> 01:15:22,656 So we're just gonna fuck it off then? 1904 01:15:22,790 --> 01:15:26,627 - Yeah, mate. Like that's the end of it. 1905 01:15:26,761 --> 01:15:27,728 We've had a good time. 1906 01:15:27,862 --> 01:15:29,497 And to be honest mate, 1907 01:15:29,630 --> 01:15:31,232 you're quite lucky right now 1908 01:15:31,365 --> 01:15:32,700 to have come away with me 1909 01:15:32,833 --> 01:15:34,168 to like be sitting here right now. 1910 01:15:34,301 --> 01:15:35,970 You're in a good position. 1911 01:15:36,103 --> 01:15:37,438 Like you've had a good time. 1912 01:15:37,571 --> 01:15:39,907 Like, look at you, look at me. 1913 01:15:40,041 --> 01:15:41,208 Have you not had a good time? 1914 01:15:41,342 --> 01:15:42,710 - [Benji] Stop fucking calling me mate. 1915 01:15:42,843 --> 01:15:43,811 - Like what? 1916 01:15:43,944 --> 01:15:44,845 - [Benji] It's fucking weird. 1917 01:15:44,979 --> 01:15:46,347 - Mate, look at yourself. 1918 01:15:46,480 --> 01:15:48,082 When I saw you in the airport, I thought, 1919 01:15:48,215 --> 01:15:48,983 fucking hell, 1920 01:15:49,116 --> 01:15:50,217 he looks like an easy target. 1921 01:15:50,351 --> 01:15:51,185 And I was right, wasn't I? 1922 01:15:51,318 --> 01:15:52,521 Look at you. 1923 01:15:52,653 --> 01:15:53,522 Fucking count yourself lucky. 1924 01:15:53,654 --> 01:15:54,555 You've had a good run. 1925 01:15:54,688 --> 01:15:55,923 Fuck off. 1926 01:16:00,461 --> 01:16:03,464 - (sniffs) Okay. 1927 01:16:03,597 --> 01:16:04,598 Good. 1928 01:16:11,506 --> 01:16:14,175 (Jake groaning) 1929 01:16:16,410 --> 01:16:17,611 - I'm sorry. 1930 01:16:24,452 --> 01:16:28,589 When I saw you in the airport that first time 1931 01:16:30,825 --> 01:16:32,760 I thought you were a 10 1932 01:16:32,893 --> 01:16:35,429 and I still think you're a 10 now. 1933 01:16:35,564 --> 01:16:36,531 Right? 1934 01:16:36,664 --> 01:16:39,033 But like, what do you expect? 1935 01:16:39,166 --> 01:16:40,535 Life doesn't work like this. 1936 01:16:40,668 --> 01:16:42,571 I can't just drop everything 1937 01:16:42,703 --> 01:16:43,737 and run off with you into the sunset. 1938 01:16:43,871 --> 01:16:46,073 It don't work like that. 1939 01:16:49,910 --> 01:16:51,378 I can't just... 1940 01:16:53,981 --> 01:16:55,749 I've got so much stuff going on right now 1941 01:16:55,883 --> 01:16:58,619 and I can't just walk away from them. 1942 01:16:58,752 --> 01:16:59,753 Can I? 1943 01:16:59,887 --> 01:17:01,989 I can't just abandon them. 1944 01:17:07,128 --> 01:17:09,029 (sighs) 1945 01:17:18,139 --> 01:17:21,642 I'm sorry. (both crying) 1946 01:17:21,775 --> 01:17:24,778 (somber music) 1947 01:17:34,788 --> 01:17:36,625 ♪ There's a monster in my head ♪ 1948 01:17:36,757 --> 01:17:39,693 (door thudding) 1949 01:17:39,827 --> 01:17:43,898 ♪ That won't leave ♪ 1950 01:17:44,031 --> 01:17:47,902 ♪ I wish I could ♪ 1951 01:17:48,035 --> 01:17:53,874 ♪ Take a moment to relax ♪ 1952 01:17:54,008 --> 01:17:56,578 ♪ But it's harder ♪ 1953 01:17:56,710 --> 01:17:59,747 ♪ Than it seems ♪ 1954 01:17:59,880 --> 01:18:01,550 ♪ I'd love ♪ 1955 01:18:01,682 --> 01:18:03,083 - [Benji] And then you feel it, 1956 01:18:03,284 --> 01:18:07,988 your body ready to purge all of that negative energy, 1957 01:18:09,156 --> 01:18:12,226 to make you feel like you again. 1958 01:18:14,895 --> 01:18:17,765 ♪ There's a monster in my head ♪ 1959 01:18:17,898 --> 01:18:19,333 - [Benji] They say the best way to move forward 1960 01:18:19,466 --> 01:18:23,204 is to go back and I think they're right. 1961 01:18:24,205 --> 01:18:25,406 So thanks 1962 01:18:25,540 --> 01:18:27,841 for going back with me. 1963 01:18:27,975 --> 01:18:33,814 ♪ Take a moment and relax ♪ 1964 01:18:33,948 --> 01:18:36,551 ♪ But it's harder ♪ 1965 01:18:36,685 --> 01:18:37,718 ♪ Than it seems ♪ 1966 01:18:37,851 --> 01:18:41,121 ♪ Look what you're doing to me ♪ 1967 01:18:41,255 --> 01:18:46,994 ♪ Let me astray from paradise ♪ 1968 01:18:47,127 --> 01:18:48,896 ♪ Into a storm ♪ 1969 01:18:49,029 --> 01:18:50,798 (baby crying) 1970 01:18:50,931 --> 01:18:54,902 ♪ Numb right to my core ♪ 1971 01:18:55,035 --> 01:18:58,172 ♪ I despise who I've become ♪ 1972 01:18:58,305 --> 01:19:00,841 - What the actual fuck! (typewriter tapping) 1973 01:19:00,975 --> 01:19:03,844 Fuck you screenwriter above my head. 1974 01:19:03,978 --> 01:19:07,181 (typewriter dinging) 1975 01:19:08,382 --> 01:19:11,085 (baby crying) 1976 01:19:25,065 --> 01:19:26,934 - Oh, thank you. Ta. 1977 01:19:29,003 --> 01:19:30,804 Shall we watch this. (melancholy music) 1978 01:19:30,938 --> 01:19:32,273 - See you later. 1979 01:19:37,411 --> 01:19:39,113 All right. 1980 01:19:39,246 --> 01:19:39,913 - Hi. 1981 01:19:40,047 --> 01:19:41,181 - Nearly didn't make it. 1982 01:19:41,315 --> 01:19:42,550 - Well, you're here aren't you? 1983 01:19:42,684 --> 01:19:43,752 - Yeah. (laughs) 1984 01:19:43,884 --> 01:19:45,252 - I was gonna say 1985 01:19:45,386 --> 01:19:48,322 it was really nice meeting you and 1986 01:19:48,455 --> 01:19:51,626 you know, apart from all this noise, 1987 01:19:51,760 --> 01:19:52,993 I'm not listening to anything. 1988 01:19:53,127 --> 01:19:56,230 It's just trying to drown that out but 1989 01:19:56,363 --> 01:19:57,931 I was thinking maybe, potentially, 1990 01:19:58,065 --> 01:19:59,800 we could maybe do something when we get back. 1991 01:19:59,933 --> 01:20:00,934 - Yeah. Nice. - Fancy that? 1992 01:20:01,068 --> 01:20:02,036 - Yeah, definitely. 1993 01:20:02,169 --> 01:20:04,338 - Some very nice Nozeco. 1994 01:20:04,471 --> 01:20:05,205 - Some... (laughs) 1995 01:20:05,339 --> 01:20:07,742 - Some Italian food, maybe? 1996 01:20:07,875 --> 01:20:09,843 - Are you asking me out? 1997 01:20:09,977 --> 01:20:10,679 - No. 1998 01:20:10,811 --> 01:20:11,513 - Oh, right. 1999 01:20:11,646 --> 01:20:12,614 - I just... 2000 01:20:12,747 --> 01:20:14,048 - I'll go sit over there then 2001 01:20:14,181 --> 01:20:15,282 with the crying baby if you want. (laughs) 2002 01:20:15,416 --> 01:20:17,051 - Oh, no. Hey, do you want these? 2003 01:20:17,184 --> 01:20:19,119 I feel sorry for, 2004 01:20:19,253 --> 01:20:20,555 (laughs) for everyone. 2005 01:20:20,689 --> 01:20:23,090 - You're not listening to them on this flight. 2006 01:20:23,223 --> 01:20:26,561 And then you realize that you're ready to depart. 2007 01:20:26,695 --> 01:20:30,130 That you're ready to start it all over again. 2008 01:20:30,264 --> 01:20:34,101 But this time it has to be better because 2009 01:20:34,234 --> 01:20:36,070 no one wants a fucking sequel. 2010 01:20:36,203 --> 01:20:42,042 ♪ Take a moment and relax ♪ 2011 01:20:42,176 --> 01:20:44,679 ♪ But it's harder ♪ 2012 01:20:44,813 --> 01:20:45,846 ♪ Than it seems ♪ 2013 01:20:45,979 --> 01:20:49,316 ♪ Look what you're doing to me ♪ 2014 01:20:49,450 --> 01:20:55,356 ♪ Lead me astray from paradise ♪ 2015 01:20:55,489 --> 01:20:58,727 ♪ Into a storm ♪ 2016 01:20:58,859 --> 01:21:02,996 ♪ Numb right to my core ♪ 2017 01:21:03,130 --> 01:21:06,233 ♪ I despise who I'd become ♪ 2018 01:21:06,367 --> 01:21:07,836 - [Benji] Just before you go, 2019 01:21:07,968 --> 01:21:10,971 here's one last Snow White and the Huntsman fantasy. 2020 01:21:11,105 --> 01:21:14,041 (gentle music) 2021 01:21:14,174 --> 01:21:15,442 To be honest, 2022 01:21:15,577 --> 01:21:17,111 we just wanted to make a fucking musical number. 2023 01:21:17,244 --> 01:21:20,648 ♪ I always hoped someday ♪ 2024 01:21:20,782 --> 01:21:24,084 ♪ That I would live and learn ♪ 2025 01:21:24,218 --> 01:21:27,287 ♪ We set our hearts on fire ♪ 2026 01:21:27,421 --> 01:21:30,891 ♪ And sat and watched them burn ♪ 2027 01:21:31,024 --> 01:21:34,128 ♪ I guess we tried too late ♪ 2028 01:21:34,261 --> 01:21:37,799 ♪ I guess I cried too long ♪ 2029 01:21:37,931 --> 01:21:41,135 ♪ But there's a place I know ♪ 2030 01:21:41,268 --> 01:21:44,204 ♪ When everything feels wrong ♪ 2031 01:21:44,338 --> 01:21:48,308 ♪ Let's go, let's go ♪ 2032 01:21:48,442 --> 01:21:51,078 ♪ Far away from all of the madness ♪ 2033 01:21:51,211 --> 01:21:55,282 ♪ Let go, let go ♪ 2034 01:21:55,416 --> 01:21:57,951 ♪ Of all of the tears and the sadness ♪ 2035 01:21:58,085 --> 01:22:01,856 ♪ Let's fall, let's fly ♪ 2036 01:22:01,989 --> 01:22:07,294 ♪ Where the sun's gonna shine in a clear blue sky ♪ 2037 01:22:09,363 --> 01:22:12,634 ♪ That's where I go when I close my ♪ 2038 01:22:12,767 --> 01:22:17,971 ♪ Eyes ♪ 2039 01:22:22,510 --> 01:22:26,447 ♪ Oh ♪ 2040 01:22:26,581 --> 01:22:28,683 ♪ Eyes ♪ 2041 01:22:39,326 --> 01:22:43,363 ♪ Let's go, let's go ♪ 2042 01:22:43,497 --> 01:22:45,999 ♪ Far away from all of the madness ♪ 2043 01:22:46,133 --> 01:22:50,170 ♪ Let go, let go ♪ 2044 01:22:50,304 --> 01:22:52,841 ♪ Of all of the tears and the sadness ♪ 2045 01:22:52,973 --> 01:22:56,744 ♪ Let's fall, let's fly ♪ 2046 01:22:56,878 --> 01:23:02,249 ♪ Where the sun's gonna shine in a clear blue sky ♪ 2047 01:23:04,318 --> 01:23:08,756 ♪ That's where I go when I close my ♪